Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I'll wait

I hope everything can go back to last time.
But not the 2years time.

I hope the relation is not just helping.
But using the sincerity.

There is no next time.
I won't lie on you.Any single.

Trust me.
I will wait the day we get back.
No matter how long.

^^V

I know you do care.
But I never know it is so much.
More than what I expect.
It will be touch if there is no conflict happen.

Yet now,I feel a bit bit stress.
Coz I know I did it wrongly.
But it had happened.
What can I do?
To make the situation better.

I hope there is something.
Not matter it is scold or what.
Better than the silence.
Anything is better than silence.

Read means my blog?
Why not?
I still treat you as my ever bud.



I do care you much.
Though I worry someone will misunderstand.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Compact Life

Time flies.Count down-ing for my IELTS exam.
*IELTS is some sort like MUET but MUET is for local U whilst IELTS is for private.

Only start serious prepared it since last week.
I had finish my own exercise book which was gave by my agent.
Now I borrowed book from AhKam who had finished his IELTS the weekend before last week and PeiRuh who had went their workshop which cost her RM300 for 4days,3hours per day.
*It is farking expensive,I know.But it is cheaper than you need to re-take which cost you RM550.Right? This made me think of what if few months before when I got my MUET result and I "rasuah" them with RM50 or even RM100 to get 1more mark for my band to pop to band4.Then,now I no need to pay for this Rm550.>..<!!!

The last thing was...I doesn't mean to really trick on you.
First,I hope to let you know after it is stable.And before public. I never know how the others get it.But once I found out some of them knew,the first person I want to tell is you.I know it is abit too late because they had knew.But I already tried my best to tell you as fast as possible.I don't know what make you react like that.May be you doesn't care about the timing which I care on? I don't know.
Second,I scare it might hurt you.Ya,I am over look on myself.I didn't have the courage to tell you like that. I know I hurt you once,so I told myself,"There's never a second time because you are my ever besties."(It is shame to say that you know me very well but I don't really know what you are thinking.I am not a good friend indeed.) When I found out you are ok with it,but I don't know how to tell,how to start.

Nothing I can say but sorry. Can you just tell me what you are thinking? I am worry about you.I don't mind you lost some trust to me because I believe I can build up your trustful though it need time. I plan to find you again after my trip because I am slightly busy nowadays. I will!!