想..

情绪总是怪怪的

跟大伙儿一起时可以很快乐

自己独自一人时却想很多

把自己搞得很emo

为什么总是这样的？

有时静下来时

回想刚刚的快乐和兴奋是发自内心的吗？

我。。真的快乐吗？

常常在想取悦他人之后的自己

真得开心吗。。

不过，中六这半年

真的是我最最最欣慰的时光

虽然不开心的事情很多

但也感觉到了被朋友关心

被在乎的幸福

朋友，对我来说很重要。

我很珍惜和每一个人的友情

你们就似我的家人

一个我受了委屈想要的避风港

也是有人会觉得受了委屈可以回到家人的怀里

那是世界上最温暖的地方

但，我已快步进18岁了

我不想被家人担心

我也想让他们觉得女儿长大了

是会想的 也不必太担忧

可是，人总是矛盾的

我还是希望偶尔还可以撒撒娇，嗲嗲一下

毕竟我还是个女孩

Kian Ann's Party

Today,just now,7pm,I went a buddy birthday party.Who is him?He is one of our buddy,Kian Ann.His birthday is on 20th October but we secretly made 1 earlier for him as a suprise.This is Su Sin senior idea.She planned all this.So touching~JoeWay,WengHou,Samuel and me went there(Setia Alam's Atmosphere Cafe?) around 7pm++.Then,we wait until 8pm++,Chze Hsien FINALLY fetch Kwee Lyn here.Now,we are waiting the main character,Kian Ann and the director,Su Sin appears.Kian Ann only know Su Sin will have a dinner with him but not all of us.

After we saw both of them appears,we walked into the restaurant and give him a suprise.He looks normal.Just eh...But after some time,he told us he already know all this because he saw Joe Way message about today.But just keep quiet.Haiz..Sienz lor..Hahaha..Anyway,we have a lot of fun there.Jokes are all around.Chze Hsien really is a joke teller.He made the party full of laughter.Of course not only him la,somemore got Joe Way,Weng Hou,Samuel,Su Sin,Kwee Lyn and Kian Ann himself.8 of us keep laughing.A very long time didn't laugh until stomachache already.About what we played,I lazy to type.Just very fun.No regrets to go out tonight.Wheeeee~~^^

But this Sunday,haihz..I couldn't come out already.I think it should be very fun also.But exam is around the corner.My mum won't let I go out so frequent.Haihz...Hope you guys could enjoy too!Between,Happy Birthday to Pei Ruh,Pei You whose are on 22nd October and Kian Ann who is on 20th October.Have fun ya!!Love you guys so so so muchie!!I couldn't imagine the school life without you all.

Recently also go met my ex-classmates.Really enjoy these life.Laughter never ends,just like our friendship.^3^

I loves my friends,
I loves my buddy,
Everyone of them.

I Love You!!!!

*First time confess officially ler..Give some claps la..*piak piak piak piak~~~*
Okok,enough enough,thanks!!!^^Hahahahaha..

Qian Ying * MPPTE

Last Saturday,I went my buddy open house,Qian Ying~Her new house was located at Shah Alam,Bukit Rimau.Her house really damn big and beautiful!!!Her house style and decoration is almost my dream house~Really nice!!!3-storey(Yi Hao don't worry,your house still the biggest because her house didn't have golf field,wahaha\^0^/),a small fountain,gym room,ktv room,every room got a toilet,damn big master bedroom and so on!!Her house is really nice!!!!!!!Once you went,you will love it and don't want go home~~Believe me!Believe me ler..Hahaha..That day all of us 12am only go home.So when I reach home,it was already 12.40am.So late.But some else were more late because of the ktv room.Lolx..Crowded~It is really enjoyable.If can,I want to stay there~Chat with gang of ex-classmate.It was quite unpredictable,last time we were all separate to many gangs but now we are could chat,laugh,joke all together happily and crazily.Miss you guys soooooooo muchie!!Hope we can come out again once day.Promise ya!!Muackxx~~!!

Then,today is my school graduation for upper 6 which called MPPTE.Feel like..finally it came..Lolx..I start nervous 2weeks before but the tension doesn't remain long.Just nervous 1day then normal again.Lolx.But handphone money use up very fast because keep informing all performance people MPPTE is coming soon to let them tension.Between when I heard Pang Yang said this 2night he only sleep 4hours.But I yesterday 10pm already on bed.Aiyo..I sick mar..Of course must sleep earlier.Hehehe...Then today morning just do the costume stuff then go chemistry lab because need do report.Force to go back class.After chemistry lesson is recess time,so I went 6A3 to invite seniors go down to dewan.After that,inform something to all performance people and confirm they were all behind stage.Then,remind Wei Loon and Kok Hong who helped me and Weng Hou be the back stage.Thanks you gus!!You guys did a great job!!I started re-tie my hair.(Wait!!!!Now only remember I havent take picture!!!DAMN!!I never tied like that one lor!!Wasted lar!!Yorr!!Argggghhhh..Nevermind!)Then,our leader,Kian Ann gather us to practise our dance.That time still not nervous yet playing around because first time saw they wear skirt.Damn funny!!Guys really don't know how to wear skirt la~Wahahaha..So funny ya Hock Guan(only we know what happened,wahaha..).After that,it almost our turn,so we walked to back stage to ready.That time still didn't felt nervous yet playing around with hairs~Then,our turns.I start felt nervous when I step on the stage.But keep telling myself I am not nervous I am not nervous.Lolx.Then,started.Suddenly a big claps from below stage,rupa-rupanya they went out already.Cheh~Hahaha..I wished I was at below of the stage when Kian Ann them were dancing,because back stage cann0t scream.Yorrr~!!Well,wanna to praise 5 of them.You guys are bravo!!So high!!Especially Kian Ann who helped us planned the dance step,Weng Hou and Hock Guan who dare to dance so "hiao" and Kian Wei and Chin Thong who not so willing but still dance because of friendship(I think so).Really thanks sooooo much!!Besides,1thing that make me very touch is many non-ajk MTE still very willing to help us.Really thanks and I'm quite touch.Because if I am not ajk,I don't think I will automatic help beside someone asked.But they just automatic stay back like us and helped especially Poh Yee.She helped risalah,performance and keep the chairs.Really thanks so much because exam is around the corner while you guys still willing to lend a hand.Really touch..Hmm..I won't speak out but I would type.Really...Thanks!!

*Any comment about the performance or the flow or everything,you may just leave a comment or to our MTE 2010 blogspot to leave comment.The link is at the right hand side of my blog.Thanks!!XD

After viewing some people blog only realise I almost a month not blogging.
Honestly,I don't know what to post.
Because life just continue like that,nothing special.

Today,I woke up at 6.30am to wake my brother up(as usual also).
Then,I continue my sleep until 7.15am.
So I decided not going to school because 2 reason.
1st,I'm late.
2nd,my gang decided go for a movie ater recess.So no point I go also.
Then,I continue my dream until 9am.
Message tone wake me up.
From them,asking me going for movie anot.
Continue be piggy after replied but I change room.
To my sister room,as usual too.Hahaha...
Then,wake up at 10++am again because they wanted bring me out for breakfast.
But I rejected because I want to sleep.Lolz..
Yet the sleep didn't last too long.
They called again after their breakfast.
So I quickly bathed myself and go out with them.
Of course,scolded by mum again.(of course la..ponteng already still go out)
Then,we went Bukit Raja JJ for movie "Where Got Ghost".
Hmmm..To me,it not very very nice but consider ok.
I feel that it quite scary..
But all of them shoot me,say I never see the real ghost movie before..
Yalar,I don't watch ghost movie can anot..
I scare mar..Huiyo...Lolz..
But happens something funny during the movie goes.
1 of us keep hug people when she feel scared,hahahahaha!!
2 victims there.It is both beside her.Hahahaha..
Feel so funny!!
Actually I not scare at all lor!!
Just scare by her shout.Hahaha..
Nola,because before every scare part,my friend will tell me.
(He see before already but still accompany us watch second time.
Thats is JoeWay and WengHou.So good la both of them.)
So I already covered my eyes.Ngiek ngiek ngiek~!!
But still get scared 1 time because I covered so long already.
Then I thought it already over,who knows when I open my eye a bit to see.
The ghost appears in the tv(people who see before will understand,hahaha).
Damn shock.
Straight away scream..
Oh my god~~!!!
Lolz..
But not bad the day I had.
Thanks lot~~~^^

Stupid Rat

Today,I sit Jojo's car go home after tuition.Before we go home,we went Eng Ann to eat things because Weng Hou keep telling us he is hungry.When we eating at XXX,Joe Way saw a rat running toward us.He keep quiet because he scared we will scream.

Who knows Huey Hsien's eye so "kaolat".She saw too!!Then she take her leg up to let the rat run through.
Who knows the rat thought it is attending Olympic,it run too fast and Huey Hsien take her leg up too slow.

Then how?Accident happened.Huey Hsien kicked the rat and she is wearing slipper.Of course she screamed.Because the feel you kicked something fury is so eeeuuuwwww...!!

Normally accidence happened,who is the most innocent?The one who hit others?Of course not right.The one who "kena" hit?Of course no,because they will got the pay from the one who hit them.Then,who else?Of course is the parking aside also kena want la!!Why I say this?Totally no related with the stupid rat right?Of course got related la!!!Because HH kicked the stupid towards my leg while I am enjoying my ABC!And my seat is back the rat,so I don't know anything until I feel something fury touch my leg and HH shout."RAT!!" and I scream together with her.So the rat get kicked and hit on someone leg.

Both of us scream and everyone look at us.Somebody even laugh.I remember you,kid!!Don't let me saw you scream next time,or else I laugh even louder!Lolz..Then,Joe Way said he already saw just now but keep quiet because don't want the situation like this happened.But it still happened.So lolz..Cute Jo~Then,I said this situation is much more better than if Xsu Ting is here lo!!Lolz..Sorry ya,Ting.I just speak out the truth.Hahahahaha...>.<

*Tomorrow will be a tiring day.Morning tuition,afternoon practise dance and night basketball mp.Hope everything will be smooth and fun!!^^

Lolz?

Lolz..Recently suddenly many people(not many also la..just 2,3people but many sounds nicer instead of a few..hahaha) cared towards my crush.

What a lolx~
Actually I really don't know.One of my friend asked,"How you feel lately?He is so close with her yet she is your close friend."Honestly before I knew they were impossible,I feel nothing,just "O..." and think of "They together not bad ar,she is good enough for him".After I know, still nothing.Lolz..

Gave up already?
Used to it already?
Or...just my stubbornness for these days?

Don't know lo..And lazy to bother it..Because it isn't important also.
But I quite wish to get some counsel from one of my friend because his...Hmmm..He got many stuff same as me,I feel la..And every time I gained things throughout the conservation.
He quite lucky lo.Because we are not so close but he can get my trust so fast.A bit "bu shuang" one lor..Hahaha..Joking joking..

Another friend said,"You too close with many guy,hard to find your Mr.Right"
Lolz..I replied,"Don't want find can a not?"
Don't feel involve into a relationship right now.
Enjoying my life right now.
Don't feel to change it except be more hardworking on my studies.
I do think this is the right thing I need to do now.
Relationship?
May be later or never.
Because I feel like wasting time if it won't last.
Pesismistic?I don't think so.
Just think more further.

Appreciate~

The day lately sounds good to me.

Because I found out 3 of my friends weren't single,

and another 1 more got confessed from someone she liked.

Felt the happiness and sweetness from them.

I felt excited too without reason!

Wahahaha...

Besides,

I found my way to go.

I got the lesson to let it go.

I found out let go was just so easy and I was struggle so much for past 1month.

I found out that to face those people who don't like me wasn't a tough job.

I found back my ohm towards co-curiculum.

I found back the spirit of myself.

I found out there's people were cared about me even though we weren't close.

I gained a lot of things after this.

Ya,it is suffer when I couldn't find the way out.

But if it is not so struggling,how could I feel the happiness when I found my way out.

Anyway,I appreciated the care and counsel from you guys.

It helped me lots.

Thanks.^^

第一次..

长这么大了。。

第一次被针对。。
第一次被讨厌。。
第一次面对政治手段。。
第一次发现我最信任的人都戴上面具。。
第一次被激怒。。

突然，好茫然。。觉得好恐怖。。
在看着这篇布落格的你！你可以觉得我很假。。
因为。。我真的累了。。我不想再管了。。
活在别人的看法下做人，我很累了。。
我只想做回我自己！
开心面对每一个人。。
如果你们依然觉得我想靠关系，那随你！
但我还是会笑着面对你们，因为我大方！

是你们，一次又一次把我的热诚给扑灭了。。
是你们，让我学会戴上面具。。
但，这面具我戴不下。。
我记得有一位学长说过：“我长得不帅，但我不需要戴面具做人。”

中六，的确让我学了很多。。
也让我第一次想要对身边的每一个人做起防备。。
我不怪你们。。反而要谢谢你们。。
让我成长，帮我妈妈教孩子。。
谢谢你们！！
也谢谢关心我的朋友，我不会因为这一点小事而崩溃。
如果会的话，我还会叫淑雯吗?


*Sagittarius: Always be optimist!!^^

Prom Night,Night fever~!!

Lazy blog about prom night.Just very "sim tia" my rm10.Why?Cause that make-up fellow cost me Rm10 just for my eye liner.Wakao!!Anyway,luckily I didn't waste rm48 for hair styling and make up.I DIY~Hahaha..Not pretty but at least not too ugly..Hehehe..

Bangkia~Plus 2 siao kia behindKok Thai~

Erm..Duno your name but I know we same tuition centre.Hehe..

Edmund~He know my name,suprise~

Heng Jin~

Yi Kuang~

Kang Kai~

Pei Chin~

Koperasi's friend~

Kha Lim~

Leong Chin~

Hui Xian~

Seow Yen Yen~

Wei Loon~

Kei Yeik~

Kok Hong~

Kian Wei~

Xie Wei,best buddy since form3!!

Jojo~!!!

Kian Ann~

Weng Hou~

Bestian~

Buddy since primary!!

Poh Yee~Totally different after make up,pretty!!

My daughter grown!!Sze Yee~

Alex~Long time no see..Still that pattern..

Hui Chin,My dear~Hahaha..

Mei Ting~Cutie girl!!

Hsien~

Kha Lim~Both of us like this photo muchie~!!

射手座終極完美分析

樂 觀與憂愁 :射手座人的內心不是外表看上去那麼樂觀的，因為喜歡看的遠，容易擔憂的事情也就多，在他們的字典裡，即使現在好，也不一定代表未來好，有時候很 多人覺得很好的一個工作或一個伴侶，他們很輕易的就會放棄掉，可能只是因為一個毫不起眼的小原因。所以，這樣的外在表現，就讓人們覺得他們不喜歡被某件事 情或某個人束縛住，追求自由的，沒有壓力的感覺。

現實：常說射手座是追求夢想的人，但往往忽略了他們現實的一面，算計起來不會比處女座差哦，只是更高明更隱藏罷了。射手座人的夢想是必須建立在現實的基礎 上的，一般他們很少談及自己的夢想，而是實際的去做一些向夢想靠攏的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，決不會多花一點工夫。所以有時候射手座也容易給人耍 小聰明的感覺。可是，不得不承認他們完成的還滿不錯。也許終其一生，他們都在考慮怎麼巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去達到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座 看上去讓人們會覺得很懶，但是其實他們的大腦可沒有停下過思考現實的事情。

拒絕低俗：幾乎所有的射手座內心都是驕傲的，其程度絕不亞於獅子座。只不過他們不會顯現在臉上，外在的表現總是隨和的，恰當的。可是內在有著極強的自尊 心，敏感也情緒化。因為射手座人心中是驕傲的，所以他們拒絕低俗，不喜歡任何俗氣的、粗魯的事或人。如果可以，他們希望一切有關的事物，都是優雅的、高尚 的，值得品味的。而真正能讓他們覺得值得交朋友或談戀愛的人是很少的，雖然表面上他們是很隨和的。

多情：很多人說射手座多情，尤其是男性。其實在射手座人的心目中，對於愛情確實有理想化的傾向，和他們談戀愛，是一件高難度的事情。他們非常討厭俗氣的 人，所以你不能很物質或喜歡談錢，但是他們又很現實，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必須有一定的實力。物質與精神，你必須平衡的剛剛好，才讓他們覺得你值 得去愛。或者，你有足夠的神秘感，可以讓他們不知道你的缺點在哪裡，而盲目的愛你。一般，當然是沒有完美無缺的人的，所以，可能像金牛座這樣永遠會讓射手 感覺捉摸不透的悶悶的人，會非常吸引他們；或者象雙子那樣，足夠機智，懂得察言觀色，捕捉他們的情緒，才會讓他們感覺到愛情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式 是，第一階段，你們還不熟悉，他（她）愛上了你，非常熱情。第二階段，你們逐漸熟悉，而他（她）開始龜毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，無論是背地裡還是當面。如果 你有幸通過他（她）的挑剔過程，基本挑剔出的毛病為零或者你把缺點保密的非常好；那麼進入第三階段，他們就又是忠誠和熱情的愛人了。但是基本能通過第二階 段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一說。其實射手對戀人的挑剔，是源於對愛情的挑剔，對喪失自由感的恐懼。 射手座人的人生，往往是幸運的，因為他們是聰慧的、明朗的、通透的。與眾不同，也許是他們終生追求的夢想，希望每一個射手人，可以找到他們的夢想！ 　

人人都說射手座是感情的騙子，對愛情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心與沖滿慾望的象徵。朋友們…你們瞭解射手座最真實的一面嗎？ 射手座是大孩子，天真與善良，遇到愛情時，可能讓人感覺不認真，付出的比誰都少。可是，知道嗎？射手座很想愛，卻也很怕愛！剛開始他們只是慢慢的付出，謹 慎的愛，好怕自己會受傷。可是在一句一句的愛，一天一天的相處下，射手座把帶刺的防備丟掉，開始不顧一切的去愛他們所愛的人，在別人眼中，只是射手座為了 達到某種目的而作的行動。可射手座不介意，他會在自己幸福的想像中陶醉，希望對方能感受自己的愛，想對方覺得與自己一齊是幸福的。 在射手座愛上了一個人，他會把自己放到最後。有苦自己承擔，可能會因為吵了一場小架而不開心，卻也是最快認錯，無論誰的錯，他們都會包容，知道嗎？射手座 會因為深愛一個人而原諒他的背叛，會因為你的一句話付出很多。他們愛玩，在玩的同時，也希望把那一份好心情帶給你，射手座是樂觀的。 　 人們總覺得射手座的世界很快樂，可是呢？射手座難過時沒有人知道，他不想讓別人可憐自己，射手座不堅強，可是很善良。在你難過時哄你開心，讓你有依靠，分 手後，他會哭者去想屬於你們倆幸福的回憶，也不想愛的人因為同情而勉強和他一齊。他比誰都希望自己愛的人快樂幸福，卻常常忽略了自己，全身都是傷也笑著告 訴你，我很好不用擔心。 　

在所有人看到他的笑容以為他沒事，卻不知道失戀對射手座有多大傷害，華麗的外表下有一顆脆弱的需要別人瞭解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一點關心，心思細 膩的射手座會記得你對他的好，把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，射手座是不被瞭解的，可他們不會怨誰。他們會傻傻的認為，讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。所 以，不要讓快樂的射手座痛苦，別讓他們最有魅力的笑容成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝，認真愛射手座。你會知道射手座的愛，是充滿淚水的...