Okay.

Thanks for the answer.

I will respect you.

Sorry for the dishonest and that day.

I am just too stupid.

I know guilty is totally useless for this.

And apologize too.

I get a very good lesson.

But I hate the 代价..

To lost a very close bud.

The ever close one.

But always bear in mind.

If there is a one day,you feel to hold back the relation.

Or even just look back.

I am always there.

Always.

Always a reservation in my heart.

For you.

You might don't know how deep it is.

Just like I can't imagine how deep I disappoint you.

I am Sorry.

=(

You

I hope to make this post is priority for U.

You'll know who you are.

My last wishes and it is the always one.

I hope our relation can back to previous.

Sincerely hope.

I rather you shout at me about what you are not happy at.

I hope that I could know what you are thinking between that few days after I told you that news.

I know it is my fault to being dishonest.

I don't want give any excuses.

There's many time that I was thinking just give up and stop struggling thinking how to get back your trust,your friendship and so on.

But after few minutes,I know I can't.

Even I said I am tired of all these.

But in my truly deep heart,I know there is a sound yelling.

"I want our friendship back! I want to back to old days time!"

I had even tried to act cool to you also.

Text you something for asking others number.

And don't want reply you a thanks you.

Because I know you won't reply a welcome.

But every time after I did this.

I am so guilty.

I am still sad.

I know I am childish.

I wonder,isn't my "balasan"?

For last time treat you like this also.

For 2years.

Should I give you 2years time also?

As my punishment.

If you ask me to do so, I am willing to wait.

Just 1sentences from you.

If you see this,I hope you can answer me.

Thanks.

I am disappointed that you couldn't make it for the previous meet up.

I even think of not to go,because you're not going.

But at last I still go because I am the organiser.

I really hope to meet up you once before I leave.

Feelings Before Depart

Time flies.

I gonna move my ass to plane next week.

And live at another place for at least half a year only can come back.

Many people asked,

"How you feel now? Excited?"

Erm..My answer is always the same..

No feelings.

But only thinking of what I need to bring and I haven't noticed.

And my brother keep telling me to appreciate people still around me.

At first,I don't understand what the hell he is talking.

Repeating the same thing that I don't understand is annoying.

After that I suddenly realised.

Yet I don't want to face it.

Because I believe it won't happen.

I trust.

There are few things I hope I can changed after these 5years and half.

1st, I can be more independent.

I admit I am quite pamper and used to rely on others.

But I got less worries for this.

As I believes human can adapt to its environment,just time is needed.

2nd,I can be more smart.

I admit I am too naive and easily believe on people.

I must change!!!

As you know,people like this hardly success in the CRUEL society.

3rd,improve my social skill.

I know most people will give me a 'Boo'.

But actually I am much more timid than last time.

I not dare be the 1st person to speak to other and etc.

Besides,my speaking skills will make others misunderstand and thought I am not happy or what..So I got to improve.

4th,5th,6th...

Haven't think.

Hahaha..

The last wishes.

I will put it in next post.

=)