This is who I am.

Happy Birthday to You

2012-02-10T23:10:00.002+08:00

Happy sweet 21st to you.

I am tired

2011-12-03T09:54:00.002+08:00

I am tired of being realistic.

I am tired of stay my heart away from others.

I am tired of protect myself.

I am tired of keep force myself to stay strong.

I am tired of can't show the weak side of myself to other.

I am tired of not being myself.

I want to be naive coz I know there is always someone beside me.

I want to be blur even my bud will make a fool on me.

I want to be the "Ben ben de ShuWen".

I want to be myself.

I want to go home.

The place I felt protected.

The place I felt secured.

The place I felt warmness.

The place I felt I being myself.

Loads of Homework

2011-09-16T16:47:00.002+08:00

I got damn a lot of assignment and presentation ar~~~

I had done 1assignment,1presentation.

But still left 1essay,1drawings,1lab report, and 2presentation.

Everything must done by next week.

Timeless timeless~~~

Nevermind,I can de!!!

Yesterday is my first day to attend formal class.

Kinna happy with Philosophy,coz the lecture is using fluent English that I can understand very well.

*She graduated in Australia~ (Heard from rumours)

Kinna disappointed to Anatomy,coz the lecture is teaching in BI.

*BI=Bahasa Indonesia

Students are using BI for presentation too~

Cool yea!!

I totally don't know what they are talking except when they telling the topic.

Only topic will repeat in English.Those explaination continue in BI~

After explaination,they will ask us in English.

"Any question KPBI (Refer to international student)?"

*silences*

"Or you guys totally don't understand?"

*silences again, nodded*

"Ok..."

*Continue teaching in BI.*

I am so concentrate to listen to the lecture and those regular students at first.

Who knows...I fall asleep.

@@...

After that,my friend told me.

"You won't feel sleepy if you don't listen to them."

Then,I just do my own things.

Like copy notes from books.

Look here,look there.

Eh~ Really wor~ I am damn awake.

Anyway,we had made a complain towards this.

It is the lecturer problem.

We shouldn't having combination class with regular student.

Just the lecture want save time,energy and bla~

*Guess so*

Continue assignment~ Chaoz!!

New Life

2011-09-11T18:00:00.002+08:00

For those who care,I am fine in Indonesia.

Had been live for 9days,many more 9days is waiting for me.

Life isn't that bad. At least the weather is cooling.

Just I got to buy drinking water or steal water from hostel cafe.

Coz we got no mineral water supply.

Pipe water here got heavy chlorine smell.

Make my skin n hair change dry after I bath.

Thinking to buy 1conditioner for my hair.

Of course,there is no heater for my bathing.

Due to the cooling weather and water,I bath once a day.

Here got no fan too.

Luckily here only hot in the afternoon,morning & night is cooling.

Especially at late night,freaking cold.

Our window is facing to corridor,kinna sad about this.

Coz I couldn't get fresh air into my room.

Thats why it having a damp smell.

So the only way is I open my door and window whenever I am in room.

For the circulation of air,though I got no privacy.

Started to make new friends here.

Anyone is not bad.

Some are nice enough.

But still lose my hometown buddy.

The bond is still far,maybe we still need time.

Walking had become 1of the most important transport and exercise everyday.

As my hostel is out from the campus.

So I got to walk those steep hill about 5-10minutes to step in the uni.

Then,20-25minutes to my faculty.

More or less 30minutes walking everyday.

Include steep hill,ladders and road.

Who ask my campus is built on a hill.

Anyway,treat as keep fit!

Just got an presentation yesterday though we haven't start class yet.

About nerve in brain and stuff.

New knowledge.

Got to find ownself about the information.

No lecture,no leader.

Everything got to built by myself..

Now only realise the fact of university life.

Hope I can go through it. =)

Yesterday orientation I get to know some Indonesian.

They are friendly.Make friend with you automatic.

Although we got abit communication problem.

Their English is not very good.

Speak BM with them,they don't really understand.

So most of the time,I just give them a big smile when I don't understand.

At the same time,they do this too. XD

Anyway,had learn a little bit of bahasa Indon and their accent.

I know many friend went local uni got many complain.

Just same like me.When I just arrive.

I am damn emo and down for the 1st day,1st night.

Far from family and friend.

The place I used to be.

To a new environment.New friends.

Felt lonely and helpless.

Think for whole night,many feelings.

Don't understand why I am here to make myself in such a condition.

Don't understand why I don't just choose local U and have better life.

And etc.

Cry until self fall sleep.

I felt better on the 2nd day after I cry out all my unsatisfied,sadness,emo and etc.

Then,new life begin.

Buy stuff that I need and arrange my things to the most comfortable position.

Every night also got things to do.

Arrange and tidy stuff.

Wash clothes.

On9.

Sewing.

Sweeping.

Cleaning.

Suddenly got so hardworking.

Maybe I am too free.

Hope I got stronger after half year.

2011-08-29T01:34:00.003+08:00

Okay.

Thanks for the answer.

I will respect you.

Sorry for the dishonest and that day.

I am just too stupid.

I know guilty is totally useless for this.

And apologize too.

I get a very good lesson.

But I hate the 代价..

To lost a very close bud.

The ever close one.

But always bear in mind.

If there is a one day,you feel to hold back the relation.

Or even just look back.

I am always there.

Always.

Always a reservation in my heart.

For you.

You might don't know how deep it is.

Just like I can't imagine how deep I disappoint you.

I am Sorry.

You

2011-08-26T03:34:00.002+08:00

I hope to make this post is priority for U.

You'll know who you are.

My last wishes and it is the always one.

I hope our relation can back to previous.

Sincerely hope.

I rather you shout at me about what you are not happy at.

I hope that I could know what you are thinking between that few days after I told you that news.

I know it is my fault to being dishonest.

I don't want give any excuses.

There's many time that I was thinking just give up and stop struggling thinking how to get back your trust,your friendship and so on.

But after few minutes,I know I can't.

Even I said I am tired of all these.

But in my truly deep heart,I know there is a sound yelling.

"I want our friendship back! I want to back to old days time!"

I had even tried to act cool to you also.

Text you something for asking others number.

And don't want reply you a thanks you.

Because I know you won't reply a welcome.

But every time after I did this.

I am so guilty.

I am still sad.

I know I am childish.

I wonder,isn't my "balasan"?

For last time treat you like this also.

For 2years.

Should I give you 2years time also?

As my punishment.

If you ask me to do so, I am willing to wait.

Just 1sentences from you.

If you see this,I hope you can answer me.

Thanks.

I am disappointed that you couldn't make it for the previous meet up.

I even think of not to go,because you're not going.

But at last I still go because I am the organiser.

I really hope to meet up you once before I leave.

Feelings Before Depart

2011-08-26T03:15:00.004+08:00

Time flies.

I gonna move my ass to plane next week.

And live at another place for at least half a year only can come back.

Many people asked,

"How you feel now? Excited?"

Erm..My answer is always the same..

No feelings.

But only thinking of what I need to bring and I haven't noticed.

And my brother keep telling me to appreciate people still around me.

At first,I don't understand what the hell he is talking.

Repeating the same thing that I don't understand is annoying.

After that I suddenly realised.

Yet I don't want to face it.

Because I believe it won't happen.

I trust.

There are few things I hope I can changed after these 5years and half.

1st, I can be more independent.

I admit I am quite pamper and used to rely on others.

But I got less worries for this.

As I believes human can adapt to its environment,just time is needed.

2nd,I can be more smart.

I admit I am too naive and easily believe on people.

I must change!!!

As you know,people like this hardly success in the CRUEL society.

3rd,improve my social skill.

I know most people will give me a 'Boo'.

But actually I am much more timid than last time.

I not dare be the 1st person to speak to other and etc.

Besides,my speaking skills will make others misunderstand and thought I am not happy or what..So I got to improve.

4th,5th,6th...

Haven't think.

Hahaha..

The last wishes.

I will put it in next post.

2011-07-30T20:33:00.003+08:00

Why always I must be the one appreciate others?
Have you ever think before,when someone always appreciate others but no one appreciate itself.
Will it continue be appreciate and be good to others?
Please!!
You make me feel to get out of here,as far as possible and don't want go back.
House sick? Might force to do so.

Flight~

2011-07-12T11:13:00.002+08:00

Few days before, I am struggling with those agents stuff.

Now, I am straight under Indonesia agency.

Great~ No need "fan"~

Well, I am quite confirm to go there because I had paid quarter of first year fees.

But if others asked me,I will still answer not sure.

Because I still can't make sure that I am to there until I am on the flight.

Hehehe..

I hope I can cope the studies.

I know it is very tough and stressful.

I know I will homesick too~!

Anyway, I will treat it as part of obstacles in my life.

Bless me!!! >.

Departure time is 0945 on 2 Sept.

But I am asked to reach LCCT at 0700.

Honestly, I felt quite lonely because I am different agent with ZJ.

So maybe our flight are different.

Haiz~ Nevermind la~

My parents will follow me~ Wakakaka..

But his parents not going. So sad huh~

Need to start list down my stuff le~!! >.

Troubles

2011-07-08T00:06:00.001+08:00

Arrrgghhhhhhhhhh~!!!!!!

There are many problems.

I am so damn f*cking "fan"~!!!!

Wtf!!!!!!!!

Imma back!

2011-07-01T15:12:00.002+08:00

Woots! Suddenly got the mood to blog~

And realise I had didn't touch this for few months~

There were many things had happened within this few months.

Gonna written those more important one.

Hehehe..

First of all, I went China 张家界.

It is a very nice place,nice view,nice food but too oily to us.

Capture many photo but didn't upload because all the photo memory was with my elder brother and he went Germany to work straight on the 2nd day after we back from China.

He had back to Malaysia few days before but he haven't copy to computer.

So stay tuned! Hahaha..

But I not gian gian want upload already coz already past too long.

Second, I had my IELTS test and I passed!

Overall 6.5 and I am satisfied with it.

Coz at least I had passed the mininum requirement for most private college.

Third,I had my entrance exam for University Padjajaran, Indonesia.

I passed as well and got the course of Dentistry.

Happy~

I never thought I will passed coz I didn't attend any tuition class as my agent couldn't manage to get a Indo-teacher to us.

Anyway,nice experience!

Between,I am going there.

The register date is 5Aug but mostly I'll skip the 2weeks orientation.

Nervous!!

I'll wait

2011-04-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

I hope everything can go back to last time.
But not the 2years time.

I hope the relation is not just helping.
But using the sincerity.

There is no next time.
I won't lie on you.Any single.

Trust me.
I will wait the day we get back.
No matter how long.

^^V

2011-04-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

I know you do care.
But I never know it is so much.
More than what I expect.
It will be touch if there is no conflict happen.

Yet now,I feel a bit bit stress.
Coz I know I did it wrongly.
But it had happened.
What can I do?
To make the situation better.

I hope there is something.
Not matter it is scold or what.
Better than the silence.
Anything is better than silence.

Read means my blog?
Why not?
I still treat you as my ever bud.

I do care you much.
Though I worry someone will misunderstand.

Compact Life

2011-04-11T17:55:00.002+08:00

Time flies.Count down-ing for my IELTS exam.
*IELTS is some sort like MUET but MUET is for local U whilst IELTS is for private.

Only start serious prepared it since last week.
I had finish my own exercise book which was gave by my agent.
Now I borrowed book from AhKam who had finished his IELTS the weekend before last week and PeiRuh who had went their workshop which cost her RM300 for 4days,3hours per day.
*It is farking expensive,I know.But it is cheaper than you need to re-take which cost you RM550.Right? This made me think of what if few months before when I got my MUET result and I "rasuah" them with RM50 or even RM100 to get 1more mark for my band to pop to band4.Then,now I no need to pay for this Rm550.>..<!!!

The last thing was...I doesn't mean to really trick on you.
First,I hope to let you know after it is stable.And before public. I never know how the others get it.But once I found out some of them knew,the first person I want to tell is you.I know it is abit too late because they had knew.But I already tried my best to tell you as fast as possible.I don't know what make you react like that.May be you doesn't care about the timing which I care on? I don't know.
Second,I scare it might hurt you.Ya,I am over look on myself.I didn't have the courage to tell you like that. I know I hurt you once,so I told myself,"There's never a second time because you are my ever besties."(It is shame to say that you know me very well but I don't really know what you are thinking.I am not a good friend indeed.) When I found out you are ok with it,but I don't know how to tell,how to start.

Nothing I can say but sorry. Can you just tell me what you are thinking? I am worry about you.I don't mind you lost some trust to me because I believe I can build up your trustful though it need time. I plan to find you again after my trip because I am slightly busy nowadays. I will!!

Life

2011-03-19T00:35:00.004+08:00

To the one who cares me,I got 1thing to say~

Guess what?Lolx..

I am going trip again next month~ XD

Feel damn shuang n excited~
My life after STPM is so damn enjoy..
Work also less..
No study..
Shuang dao bao!!!
Got the feel like doing "xiu lai lai"~
Hehehe...

BUT I swear I not going to carry camera this time!!!
T.T

"Dark shadow"~

ps: I found out I forget to write where I go and with who~
I going China,Chang Sha.There have 1 place call 张家界.
Those "promoter" from MATTA fair said the view is v.v.v.v.nice..
Many view from Avatar is from there..I was so "wao~,got anot~~"
Den I google it,really damn nice!
But I hope still that nice la..
Coz due to the pollution nowadays,the view also slowly got polluted.
And it wasn't very cold or very hot now~
Around 12 degree celcius to 19 degree celcius...
Macam air cond la~
Okay de lar~~
^^~

=.=

2011-03-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

不是我不要找你，是因为我没有理由找你。。
我不知道找你可以讲什么。
我又怕你在忙，没空理我。
然后心情不太好的我很不爽，所以就不找你。。

虽然话是这么地说，但我还是会时不时拿起手机来看。。
哎哟！总之就是烦！！

Bored life

2011-03-17T16:51:00.002+08:00

Yeeeee~ Long time din blog edy..
My life is kinna boring~!!
Coz I no work..
3months passed..
Money finish liao~
Cham..Cant go out play le..

I need job ar~

人生会遇上的四个人

2011-01-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

第一个是自己,

第二个是你最爱的人，

第三个是最爱你的人，

第四个是共度一生的人.

首先会遇到你最爱的人，然後体会到爱的感觉；

因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；

当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，

也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。

但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，这三个人通常不是同一个人；

你最爱的，往往没有选择你；

最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；

而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，

只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。

你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？

没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，

可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，

他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；

同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。

当一个人不爱你要离开你，

你要问自己还爱不爱他，

如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；

如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，

希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止，

你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了，

而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？

爱不是占有，

你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，

但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。

换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有，

让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，

如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，也爱他的坏：

爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，

绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，

万一变不成就不爱他了。

真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，

你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你；

真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。

毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；

分开是一种必然的考验，

如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，

真爱是不会变成怨恨的．

两人在谈情说爱的时候，

最喜欢叫对方发誓，许下承诺我们为什么要对方发誓，

就是因为我们不相信对方，我们根本不相信情人，

而这些山盟海誓又很不切实际：

海枯石烂、地老天荒，都不能改变我对你的爱!

明知道海不会枯、石不会烂、地不会老、天不会荒；

就算会，也活不到那时候。

许下诺言的时候千万注意，不要许下可以实现的诺言，

最好是承诺做不到的事，

反正做不到的，随便说说也不要紧，

请记住：”不可能实现的诺言最动人”

在爱情里，说的是一套，做的是另一套；

讲的人不相信，听的人也不相信。

你呢？找到了第几个？

茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

第一我肯定遇过了。。
第二也许遇过。。
第三不太懂。。
但，我现在只希望你会是我遇到的是第四个。。

Quote

2011-01-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

Love life~

His dear love her dar.
Her dar love his dear.
^^~

MUET

2011-01-07T11:39:00.003+08:00

MUET result is out yesterday.
And I got band 3 with 179marks.
1 more marks and I will get band 4.
Very the "diu"!!!!!!
Sorry for the rudeness but I really "kek" dao...
You know what..
When I go take the result from teacher,she ask me to see from their teacher copy (they have all the student marks and gred).
I just simply look at my name and straight to my score.
179!!! But above me is 177.
As it is a big and long paper.
So I request teacher to give me a ruler.
But she rejected and ask me straight away see from my result paper.
When I tearing the paper,my mind set is...
I prefer 177 than 179!!!
I don't want so suey!!
But the fact still...Haihz...

So now I am busying with those appeal things..
Wish me luck.
Hope I could get the 1mark..>.<

Life After STPM

2011-01-02T15:51:00.003+08:00

I had officially ended my STPM on 16 Dec 2010~!
No matter how was my result,at least I had tried my best.

Then,I went Port Dickson and Melaka with my bestie straight after exam.
There were 12 of us.HueyHsien, HuiChin, MeiTing, PohLing, ZhongJie, SoonTeck, HockGuan, CheeHo, WuChen, JiaYang, FuTzen and me~! 3cars going. ZJ's car got HG,HC and WC. CH's car got HH,PL and me. FT's car got ST,JY and MT. We stay at ZJ's house at Port Dickson.We clean up his house once we reach coz there are too dirty.We girls sweep and mop floor while guy don't know do what outside the house.They say they are cleaning the dog shit in front of the house.*Wondering 1 dog shit need so many guy clean?Lolx..Anyhow,we settle down ourselves before 6pm.

Then,we ready for the BBQ section~
Before this,we girls cheat guys that all the food I buy is vegetarian de..
And I just realised.Then I act innocent and "nei jiu"~ Hahaha..Most suit dy.Coz I blur blur one~All of them believe and want go out buy MEAT~Lastly we only tell them the truth when they ready to start their car.
We buy too many food already.So left many fishball.

After that some of the guy sing k (not go ktv sing,is just sit in front of the laptop and look at the lyrics and sing~),those couple go "keng xim shi"~ Some go lie on bed and ready to sleep.Of course,I am the one who lying on bed la..>.<
At the same time,someone same nasib with me,so both of us chat in the room and listen the "song" sang by those guys~

The 2nd day~
We wake up early morning about 4am for the sun rise but unluckily,we failed to see coz we couldn't find a place have the nice view to see~So we go home to continue sleep until 10am.Then tidy up ourselves by using 2hours and have our lunch at 12pm.Then we go "Tiara",the don't know is resort or hotel. We are planned to swim but some of girls having period,some didn't bring swimsuit and eg. So end up girls just chit chat there and guys swim after they futsal. Unfortunately,there's rain. So we got to go home earlier. Then,we sleep again~ But some watch drama,some play card and etc. Then,we night go Seremban for our dinner~Eat crab..But ZJ felt uncomfortable that night,don't know what reason. None of us dare to kacau him coz he is so fierce! >.< Then,we go home after dinner. Once we reach home,own activity again after we clean the house~
*1thing happen but didn't want to share^^..*

The 3rd day~
We go Melaka~Reach there at noon.Go to our apartment and my first thing is to shit there! Lolx.. Couldn't shit well at ZJ's house as his house. Then, some of us plan to walk walk but another some plan to swim. So we divided. 4 of them go shop and the rest swim~Then,own activity again after swim as the 4 walk walk de hvn come back. Then dinner at jonker street~ After dinner,we separated and walk. Of course I with PL~ So ngam both of us like see de is same things. Those bags,acessories and etc. Around 10pm,we felt tired and decided to walk back to the parking. But we couldn't contact the others. So sad~! Then we find them like crazy..Finally~ We find dao..Then go home. That night I quite bu shuang coz very tired edy,that sei ZJ still ask me carry this and that. He guy lor! Ishhh..Suan le,I had carried and I don't want argue with him,no energy..Tired~!! *Something had happened and not going to share as well~*

The 4th day~
Nothing much. Eat lunch and go home~

After I had back home. I got to rush to SueYee's party. Damn tired. Then,I also got to pack my luggage for China trip 2days later. Rush rush rush~!!

For my trip in China,overall is fun and not bad. The only things is I lost my camera at the last day!!!!! I damn sad for this..T.T
That's all. Not much..Sad

Annoyed

2010-12-20T02:08:00.002+08:00

I am just ended my STPM exam.
I should felt glad,cheers and excited.
Yea,I do.
For the 1st few days only...
After few days,something happened.
An unexpected one.
Not going to say it now.
But it...really torture me.
And I HATE IT!!!!

Tension!

2010-11-10T02:47:00.002+08:00

Yeep yeep...
Less than 2weeks I will face STPM..
Yet..I am still..Like that..
My study speed is...Damn slow..
1day 1chap ONLY..
Forcing myself to have 2chap..
But failed..
SHIT!!!
More slack than my SPM..
Hoh Sei liao..
Nevermind la..
Will going to Private if I couldn't get the course I want..
IMU is my first choice previously..
But their MUET qualify is band 4 and need don't what "IX"..
Suan le ba..My english is too limit..>.<
Second,UCSI~
Third,oversea ba..
Discuss with parents first..
No matter what and how,fight for this exam first!!!
Last post before my exam..
Bless me kao kao!!
Gam Xia Lu~!!!!

你就是他

2010-11-01T05:02:00.002+08:00

他
是我一个很特别的朋友
一个没有人能代替的朋友

我们曾经感情很要好
对我来说
他就像是我的哥哥一样

我有什么事
第一个想到的就是他
无论是开心的也好
伤心的也好
还是只是一件普通通的事

后来有一些事情发生
我们从无话不说的死党
变成了陌生人
最熟悉的陌生人来形容我们
也许是最贴切的

前一阵子
我又想找回他的念头
但因为某种原因
我怯步了

最近我得知原来他一直和我有一样的想法
想找回当年死党的友情

埋在最深的心底的事
突然可以解决
感觉很怪但很开心
因为我以为这辈子我们都不能和好了

虽然我不知道到底能不能像以前那么好
但至少有点希望。。

I am FINE~!

2010-10-20T02:01:00.002+08:00

Hmmm...Yea
By refer to my previous blog,I am kinna emo,sad,despo..
All those negative thinking..

Thanks for those who consult me,
although just few message or a conversation or so on..
but it is useful and I am appreciated~
You guys make me feel warm and..
Got the ohm to fight for it~!

No matter what and how my result is..
At least I had tried..
I DO my best,not just TRY my best..

Friend say,"What's change after you cry?You still don't know,you still blur.Why don't you make use the time of sit there and cry to find the answer and make yourself clear."
Hmmm..Agree with him BUT..
If cried can depressed..Why don't I find the answer and cry together?Hahahahaha..

Another friend say,"Relax~!"*Forgot how he say..The main point is don't tension and last minutes study~
True also! I got a better result in midterm just because I am not tension,not stress,my mind set is answer whatever I know;those who don't know,ignore~If not can how o..Copy others mer~
But trial I aim result..>.
Anyway,just to tell those for are worrying me that I am fine~!
No matter how worst the result..I still can go for private ar~
The day is not end yet!!
Lalalalalala~!!!

*To my dear JUNIOR!! You're one of them who making me stress!!
Say hami want show off my result to others!!
Make me stress sia~!!
I am just your foster lor~~~To help you 'menyesuaikan diri' at form6 life.
But since that you're ex-highschoolian,you know this school much more better than me,
so I no need bother you much~
But you don't make me stress lor~!!
Macam you're my foster edy~!!
Isshhhhh..!!!Don't want 'choi' u!!
Hahahaha~Relieve~
*For those who know him.Don't tell him!!He don't know I am the bloggie~Hahahaha..*

I am Lost

2010-10-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

I feel very very very bad now..
I got no mood for my studies..
Hollyshit!!
My mum had left me at home and she went for the praying for "Gao Ong Ya"..
I was so despo..I am so emo...
Yea,I admit that I am emo for the very first time..
I don't know who I can talk to..
As my bud are not on9..
I am sad..
Tears rolls..
I couldn't stand for it anymore...

I understand,even though I had pray but if I didn't pay the effort,the result will be still the same..
I know..I understand..
But if I had pray,there's the confidences..
Just like my Speaking test..I surely got the very low marks!!!
I got the points..Many points..
But I got no chances to say as my teammates had involved into a quarrel..
Or I should say,an argument for a more polite way..
A not friendly argument..

My luck is damn not good!!
You said that when a person do good things,the luck will come..
I had changed much in this years..To a better person..
Not for the luck..For myself..To improve..
But why I seems like got the better luck when I am so bad..

I am not moody..It isn't a simply emo..
I am deeply sad..I could feel my heart is bleeding..
I am sad..I am not happy..

I got totally NO confident for this STPM after I had got my result in final..
My result dropped..
For few grade!!Not only marks!!
I got no confident to continue my studies..
I am lost..I feel very scare..
I scare to disappoint my parents..
Because they thought I am very good just because my midterm is quite okay..

I...I..I am lost..
Where's my direction..
T.T

Vin

2010-09-05T16:10:00.002+08:00

I had went airport this early morning.

To say "Good Bye" to Yuvin.

He went Canada to pursue his studies.

Starting didn't feel anything.

But once I saw his tears rolling in his eyes.

When he hugged his family tightly.

Many emotions pops out.

I felt sentimental in sudden.

Memories of him flooded my mind.

Yea~May be you guys may felt that I sad for what..

Not that close also wad..

Yea yea..

We aren't close.

We are only classmates.

We are only Hi-Bye friends.

We never talked in class before because I sat at the most front while he was at the most back.

The ONLY interaction during Form4 Form5 was on every Monday.

"You late again ar?Hahaha..."

Actually we are not late,but always reach school ON TIME.

I am the latest to reach school among girls in my class and he is among guys.

*Why I can remember so clear?Because he wrote this as my comment in our class graduate book.

But all these not close friendship had ended before last year.

We went the same camp at Dusun Eco,Pahang last year.

We are the committees.

I only know that he is so blur enough to make me laugh at him.

Yet he didn't angry.

For those who know me well,I sure will start bully him la!!

Hahahaha..

But only in the camp because after that we got not much chance to meet.

BUT~

He came to our Form6 Math tuition.

Sweat~! Got too much money...

Then got closer with him and started bullied him.

Actually I didn't bully him,I only laugh at him.

Because he really too blur~

So and so...

All those memories(lazy mention all out lar..) flooded my mind while looking he checked in.

Of course,all the guys hugged him just before he stepped to the escalator.

KaiLee asked us want to shake hand with him?

But I guess I dare not..

Because I felt to tears when I saw his family tearing.

(It is so sad,believe me!!)

I not sure I won't tears after shake hand with him.

At the same time,I wonder if I got the chance to get into Sabah or Sarawak local U.

Will my family cry?

I think won't lor...

Coz my parents had planned to go with me!!

Felt happy and sad at the same time.

Happy coz I won't got homesick.

Sad coz I couldn't grow up independently.

I want to learn to take care of myself!!

I want to learn to be smart!!

I don't want blur blur!!

p/s: I saw a very cute little boy in the airport.I shake my hand with him (Means ByeBye) and he shake to me too!!!Then I fly kiss to him and he was shy!!!Sooooooooooooo cute lar!!!! Hahahaha...

Sobzz

2010-09-04T13:13:00.001+08:00

Can I cry??

STPM is soooooooooooo near yet I am so slack!!!

Keep sleep sleep sleep!!!

I can't control my eye lid..

It keep closing..>.

My future ar~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can anyone motivate me??

T.T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moody

2010-08-11T20:56:00.005+08:00

Kinna moody nowadays..
Sometime cheers..
Sometime emo..
Sometime disappointed..
Sometime mad off..
What happened to me..
T.T

Suprised that I am nervous when I saw you
Suprised that my mind totally blank when you come near me
I must control~!
CAN NOT fall for you..
No No No!!!

Thingy

2010-07-31T03:55:00.005+08:00

I know it's a bit late to post this.

But never mind la~

At least I post right?*ngiek ngiek ngiek*

Finally all of my club had AGM~

Means can't slacking anymore~!!

Study harder~!!

Not start study already..

Hmmm..Now waiting for my MP's~

Hahahaha..

I joined 4clubs (Seni dan Budaya,Moral,Basketball and MPP) and Koperasi for bonus.

S&B and Moral are take over by Arus.

So didn't have MP. *SAD*

Luckily I still got Koperasi,Bkb and MPP~

Wheeeee~!

Anyway,should reduce my time on FB, Youtube and blog~

STPM,

My future. My life.

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By request from 1 of my buddy~

I blog a bit about my prom ba..

Hmmm...

It was on Sunday night.

Let me refresh~

*silent*

That day was a busy day.

Because I usually settled my housework on that day.

Sweep and mopped.

But I washed clothes on that day as well because my mum had dipped those clothes a day before.

SO~I forced to wash up all.

Anyhow,I still managed to settle down myself before 2pm.

Then,bath and ready all my stuff for the night and went Hui Chin's house.

We study a bit there.

Really a bit only. *Can't concentrated lorr..*

Then,she type her club's report and I helped her a bit typing.

Around 3.30pm,we only went to the saloon named "Clips" at BBK there.

HC drove there~

Lolx..First time be her passenger.

Taught her how to parking.XD

She say I am a good teacher ler~~Wheeee~

Then,she set hair first because she had chosen the hair style she want.

After she had set,I still no idea.

So...Just let the hair stylist to decide la..

I anything de ma..

While I setting up,I keep called HueyHsien.

Because it's almost 5pm.

We scare no time for it.

Luckily she reached just nice I had settled.

But we didn't wait her because the I had booked SueJean (Our make up stylist) at 5pm.

So we rushed back.

And Jean had waited us for awhile.

Sorrrryyyyyy~!!!!>.<

Then,HC make up first then my turn.

HC damn damn damn pretty that night.

Just like a bride.

Very lennnnnnngggggggggggggggggggg~!!!

Then,we rushed to KEC.

Luckily I had borrowed a scarf from HC's mum.

That night was raining.

The atmosphere is damn freak cold~!!

I wonder how those people wearing tube dress didn't shivering like me.

Then,we as committee enter at the most last.

But felt so odd.A bit shy...

Don't like this type of feeling.

My table left 2seats for me and MeiTing.

1 is beside JiaYang,1 is beside KaiLee.

SEE also know which one is my seat la..Lolx..

*My table got HuiChin, WunChen, HueyHsien, CheeHo, KianAnn, JiaYang, MeiTing, KaiLee, FungKhiang,HisGF*

The prom start with speech.

Then performance > eat.

Many people capture photo while eating.

Included 5 of us~

But KaiLee haven't upload until now~

Lolx..

Then,3 of us(MT,KL,me) went toilet to get some warmness.

SS-ing inside the toilet.

And my scarf was confiscated by MT~!

She said the scarf made my dress very "beh kua".

So at last we dealed 1thing.

I will had my scarf back when we are sitting.

I will put it off when I am not sitting=walking/standing.

But they cheated me lor~!!

They put it on by turn,cause all of us are cold~

HC>HH>MT>KL&me.

Then,see performance again.

After that free dance.

My partner had invited me.

But felt odd..>.<

Maybe we not that close yet..

Lucikly SenChen and his partner is with us.

We chatted happily.

AND SC's partner requested to change partner with me.

And I am ok with it.

Because I kenal SC mar~

1st junior I kenal lor~!Lolx..

*gossip time*

I heard SC's partner SEARCHED my partner for a long time already.

I was like..WAO~!

She so brave ler..Lolx..

Another my junior's admirer.

*gossip ended*

In between, my partner and me got "suan siao" by our friends lo..

Sienz~ Expected..

In this,I am admired my own alertness~XD

I could easily avoided every push from THEM.

*You know la..Sienz*

Wheeee~! I so pro ler..XD

Another interesting stuff~

I teased WengHou as well~~Hahahaa..

He was too timid la~!!

Should I use timid to describe?XD

Lolx..He should...Haihz..Nothing le la..

He satisfied can already..

Then,back to seat.

Time for lucky draw.

MT won the hamper~

Then the most "LUCKY" draw turn.

6 peoples' chair was stick a letter.

And I so LUCKY.

I am one of them.

6 of us are asked to go up the stage to have something LUCKY.

The lucky ever thing was "安全之吻".

Feel like crying that time.TT

My lucky partner was PangYang.

Luckily is kenal quite long de..

Won't paiseh..Hahaha..

And again I am sooooooooooooo admired of my "seng mok".

I used finger to block at first by rejected.

Then I changed to I kiss the corner while PY kiss the middle.

Wheeee~!

And I saw my dear JUNIOR keep capture this with his exciting face.

He always got excited when I felt the opposite.

*You hate me,right!!Lolx...*

After that,time for voting prom king and queen~

Of course,we vote for WUN CHEN la..

Buddy's husband ler~Lolx...

Then,I hide inside toilet when prom king was appeared~

Cause I predicted something bad will happened~!!

But still got found out by KhaLim and Jushean.

So..Boh Huat already..

Go lor..Accompany HC ba..

Sienz...Hate this type of feeling also..

Then,this prom ended with capturing with some friends.

Don't know since when,

I only like to be with my friend.

The close one.

Don't know since when,

I am shy to know new friends.

I am not used to smile with those I not really know.

But I will smile back to them if they smile to me first.

I don't like to be the one who taking the initiative.

Just because I am a girl?

Don't know since when,

I don't like to be spotted.

I prefer to be the audience.

Observing others.

I like the way to be peace.

Updated

2010-07-23T22:33:00.007+08:00

Many things had happened these days.

The cheers one.The sad one.The disappointed one. Etc.

The sad and the disappointed one.

Hmmm..Nothing to say much.

19years old,should have a brain which can think wisely.

What can say and what can't say.

I understand everyone got their own trustworthy person.

But...

I am pretty sure you know what is the consequences of what you had did.

Hmmm..Hope you can stop although it is too late.

Time flies.Someday in future you will got find out by others.

*Not suit to express too much.*

The excitement.

Our school's chinese society had organised an event.

12 performances in total.

Some performance are quite special.

Eg. 变脸,杂技..

Although it is not as grand as KH but you guys had did a great job~!

Because it is so darn hard to organise an slightly bigger event at my school.

So~The performance is rank 8 to me~!

Besides,Henley ( Champion of SUPERSTAR 200x,I forgot already) had been invited to our school.

I not that like him actually.

But he is handsome~!!!

This attracted me..Hahahaha..

Had took quite a number of his photo~

I find out I am getting more hesitated.

You know what,I not dare shake hand with Henley~

@@...I also don't know why.

>.<...The same feeling at prom appears.

But after ZJ encouraged.

I did it~^^

I used my right hand~

Then JW asked me a question.

"You want at stage de or below stage de?"

Of course~ Is below stage de la..Lolx..

I will be a bit out of control when I saw handsome~

But my mind set still clear lo~!Hahahaa..

The odd one.

It's about the prom.

Hmmm..I prefer "Night Fever" more than "Phantom Night".

Not to say they are not good this year.

Their venue is better.Many performance.

But the food not nice.

Too many outsider,didn't feel the warmness like last year.

Performance too much,felt bored.

The unbalance of time for performance and free dance.

Didn't felt any phantom~

If the same person of my table this year is at last year.

Then,it should be great~Hahaha..

And all my girls are so sharp that night.

So enjoy with you all~

Muakxx~!

Besides,I found out that this year female junior is so initiative.

They will invite the partner they want.

So....WAO~!

Lolx..But I guess I never can do this.

Hahahaha..

This year juniors are rich~

Most of them wear so grand and set up their hair.

Compare last year me and this year junior.

Owwhhh..So big difference.XD

Besides,there's few couple appeared~

Tradition of form6?Hahahaha..

* How to make some post private?

I dare not blog out what I want after juniors enter.

I scared got stalked.

Think too much?

Lolx.

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I like the way you hold me to the middle.

It make me flashback some pasts of mine.

And it is sweet.

I like you the way you give me that.

It's suprised.

I guess,I shouldn't think that you had motive.

May be you have.

But may be not.

Think that you are sincere and naive,

I will feel better.

*I like the colour of blue.

Because it make me feel relax.

Just like I decided to believe on you.

It is more relax than guessing.

文章

2010-07-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

有些东西，你再喜欢也不会属于你的，
有些东西，你再留恋也注定要放弃的，
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害..

有些缘分是注定要失去的，
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，
爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱

他..

男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了..

如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择沉默..
如果沉默是一种伤害，我选择离开..

如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出..
如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束..
如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟..
如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉..
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，
好多事情当时糊里糊涂,但
清醒时一切都成为往事.

有一种爱, 明明是深爱, 却说不出来..
有一种爱, 明明想放弃, 却无法放弃..
有一种爱, 明知是煎熬, 却又躲不开..
有一种爱, 明知无前路, 心却早已收不回来..

决定放弃你的那一刻我心碎了..

什么是勇气？
是求着要你爱我，还是逼迫自已离开..?

为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前的这个人呢？
在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为总会重逢，总会有缘再会，
总以为有机会说一声对不起，却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别..

一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息..

爱上了你的温暖，即使没有任何结局..
爱上了你的爱情，即使你不确定..

人这样的生物，仔细一看，原来是伤痕累累的..
是否被爱，每个人有不同的感受..
重寻旧梦的代价往往是惨重的..
人世间的幸福，总会令人好看一点..

身上一切，看似不经意，却是我苦心经营，希望你快乐..

世事其实都是在它适当的时候降临，只是我们没有适当的心情去迎接它..

因为爱他，所以离开他.. 我喜欢这句话。
有些感情如此直接和残酷。容不下任何曲折的温暖。
带着温暖的心情离开，要比苍白的真相要好，纯粹的东西死的太快了..

感情被懂得是一种幸福，等待着被懂得是一种孤独..

我选择放弃你，因为我深爱你.. 在爱情上，我输了..

Worried

2010-07-14T02:44:00.001+08:00

I couldn't sleep~!!!
My mind is full of STPM, MUET and my prom night's partner.

STPM...MUET
It's so near already but I still haven't prepared.Arrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhh~! I angry myself so much~!!And I am retaking my MUET also..Coz my previous result is totally NOT qualify for a bio stream student.No point.Take again.So~!!!!!!I need to face these 2 v.v.v.v.v.important exam at the same month.Oh my gosh..Can I do it?>.<...I want to cry~!!!!!Anyone can lend a shoulder?T.T

Partner..
Hmmmm..This..I guess he never know my blog since he so...NERD.Hahaha...I thought I will feel happy after he invited me,but things didn't go that way.I started worried, started suspecting..I always feel that he deserve a better partner la..Now some more is the most good looking in my school.>.<...I told my friend.Both of them scolded me.>.<..Yea,I think too much..

Arggghhhh~!!!Still couldn't stop thinking my dear STPM and MUET~!!!

Aim

2010-06-26T21:46:00.003+08:00

I got 2.33 for my mid-term.
Although I am satisfied with it,
but not my family,especially my mum and sister.
Keep nagging me..
Arwww~!!
My happiness and proudness totally gone.
>..

情绪总是怪怪的

跟大伙儿一起时可以很快乐

自己独自一人时却想很多

把自己搞得很emo

为什么总是这样的？

有时静下来时

回想刚刚的快乐和兴奋是发自内心的吗？

我。。真的快乐吗？

常常在想取悦他人之后的自己

真得开心吗。。

不过，中六这半年

真的是我最最最欣慰的时光

虽然不开心的事情很多

但也感觉到了被朋友关心

被在乎的幸福

朋友，对我来说很重要。

我很珍惜和每一个人的友情

你们就似我的家人

一个我受了委屈想要的避风港

也是有人会觉得受了委屈可以回到家人的怀里

那是世界上最温暖的地方

但，我已快步进18岁了

我不想被家人担心

我也想让他们觉得女儿长大了

是会想的也不必太担忧

可是，人总是矛盾的

我还是希望偶尔还可以撒撒娇，嗲嗲一下

毕竟我还是个女孩

Kian Ann's Party

2009-10-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

Today,just now,7pm,I went a buddy birthday party.Who is him?He is one of our buddy,Kian Ann.His birthday is on 20th October but we secretly made 1 earlier for him as a suprise.This is Su Sin senior idea.She planned all this.So touching~JoeWay,WengHou,Samuel and me went there(Setia Alam's Atmosphere Cafe?) around 7pm++.Then,we wait until 8pm++,Chze Hsien FINALLY fetch Kwee Lyn here.Now,we are waiting the main character,Kian Ann and the director,Su Sin appears.Kian Ann only know Su Sin will have a dinner with him but not all of us.

After we saw both of them appears,we walked into the restaurant and give him a suprise.He looks normal.Just eh...But after some time,he told us he already know all this because he saw Joe Way message about today.But just keep quiet.Haiz..Sienz lor..Hahaha..Anyway,we have a lot of fun there.Jokes are all around.Chze Hsien really is a joke teller.He made the party full of laughter.Of course not only him la,somemore got Joe Way,Weng Hou,Samuel,Su Sin,Kwee Lyn and Kian Ann himself.8 of us keep laughing.A very long time didn't laugh until stomachache already.About what we played,I lazy to type.Just very fun.No regrets to go out tonight.Wheeeee~~^^

But this Sunday,haihz..I couldn't come out already.I think it should be very fun also.But exam is around the corner.My mum won't let I go out so frequent.Haihz...Hope you guys could enjoy too!Between,Happy Birthday to Pei Ruh,Pei You whose are on 22nd October and Kian Ann who is on 20th October.Have fun ya!!Love you guys so so so muchie!!I couldn't imagine the school life without you all.

Recently also go met my ex-classmates.Really enjoy these life.Laughter never ends,just like our friendship.^3^

I loves my friends,
I loves my buddy,
Everyone of them.

I Love You!!!!

*First time confess officially ler..Give some claps la..*piak piak piak piak~~~*
Okok,enough enough,thanks!!!^^Hahahahaha..

Qian Ying * MPPTE

2009-10-14T23:57:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday,I went my buddy open house,Qian Ying~Her new house was located at Shah Alam,Bukit Rimau.Her house really damn big and beautiful!!!Her house style and decoration is almost my dream house~Really nice!!!3-storey(Yi Hao don't worry,your house still the biggest because her house didn't have golf field,wahaha\^0^/),a small fountain,gym room,ktv room,every room got a toilet,damn big master bedroom and so on!!Her house is really nice!!!!!!!Once you went,you will love it and don't want go home~~Believe me!Believe me ler..Hahaha..That day all of us 12am only go home.So when I reach home,it was already 12.40am.So late.But some else were more late because of the ktv room.Lolx..Crowded~It is really enjoyable.If can,I want to stay there~Chat with gang of ex-classmate.It was quite unpredictable,last time we were all separate to many gangs but now we are could chat,laugh,joke all together happily and crazily.Miss you guys soooooooo muchie!!Hope we can come out again once day.Promise ya!!Muackxx~~!!

Then,today is my school graduation for upper 6 which called MPPTE.Feel like..finally it came..Lolx..I start nervous 2weeks before but the tension doesn't remain long.Just nervous 1day then normal again.Lolx.But handphone money use up very fast because keep informing all performance people MPPTE is coming soon to let them tension.Between when I heard Pang Yang said this 2night he only sleep 4hours.But I yesterday 10pm already on bed.Aiyo..I sick mar..Of course must sleep earlier.Hehehe...Then today morning just do the costume stuff then go chemistry lab because need do report.Force to go back class.After chemistry lesson is recess time,so I went 6A3 to invite seniors go down to dewan.After that,inform something to all performance people and confirm they were all behind stage.Then,remind Wei Loon and Kok Hong who helped me and Weng Hou be the back stage.Thanks you gus!!You guys did a great job!!I started re-tie my hair.(Wait!!!!Now only remember I havent take picture!!!DAMN!!I never tied like that one lor!!Wasted lar!!Yorr!!Argggghhhh..Nevermind!)Then,our leader,Kian Ann gather us to practise our dance.That time still not nervous yet playing around because first time saw they wear skirt.Damn funny!!Guys really don't know how to wear skirt la~Wahahaha..So funny ya Hock Guan(only we know what happened,wahaha..).After that,it almost our turn,so we walked to back stage to ready.That time still didn't felt nervous yet playing around with hairs~Then,our turns.I start felt nervous when I step on the stage.But keep telling myself I am not nervous I am not nervous.Lolx.Then,started.Suddenly a big claps from below stage,rupa-rupanya they went out already.Cheh~Hahaha..I wished I was at below of the stage when Kian Ann them were dancing,because back stage cann0t scream.Yorrr~!!Well,wanna to praise 5 of them.You guys are bravo!!So high!!Especially Kian Ann who helped us planned the dance step,Weng Hou and Hock Guan who dare to dance so "hiao" and Kian Wei and Chin Thong who not so willing but still dance because of friendship(I think so).Really thanks sooooo much!!Besides,1thing that make me very touch is many non-ajk MTE still very willing to help us.Really thanks and I'm quite touch.Because if I am not ajk,I don't think I will automatic help beside someone asked.But they just automatic stay back like us and helped especially Poh Yee.She helped risalah,performance and keep the chairs.Really thanks so much because exam is around the corner while you guys still willing to lend a hand.Really touch..Hmm..I won't speak out but I would type.Really...Thanks!!

*Any comment about the performance or the flow or everything,you may just leave a comment or to our MTE 2010 blogspot to leave comment.The link is at the right hand side of my blog.Thanks!!XD

2009-09-18T01:55:00.002+08:00

After viewing some people blog only realise I almost a month not blogging.
Honestly,I don't know what to post.
Because life just continue like that,nothing special.

Today,I woke up at 6.30am to wake my brother up(as usual also).
Then,I continue my sleep until 7.15am.
So I decided not going to school because 2 reason.
1st,I'm late.
2nd,my gang decided go for a movie ater recess.So no point I go also.
Then,I continue my dream until 9am.
Message tone wake me up.
From them,asking me going for movie anot.
Continue be piggy after replied but I change room.
To my sister room,as usual too.Hahaha...
Then,wake up at 10++am again because they wanted bring me out for breakfast.
But I rejected because I want to sleep.Lolz..
Yet the sleep didn't last too long.
They called again after their breakfast.
So I quickly bathed myself and go out with them.
Of course,scolded by mum again.(of course la..ponteng already still go out)
Then,we went Bukit Raja JJ for movie "Where Got Ghost".
Hmmm..To me,it not very very nice but consider ok.
I feel that it quite scary..
But all of them shoot me,say I never see the real ghost movie before..
Yalar,I don't watch ghost movie can anot..
I scare mar..Huiyo...Lolz..
But happens something funny during the movie goes.
1 of us keep hug people when she feel scared,hahahahaha!!
2 victims there.It is both beside her.Hahahaha..
Feel so funny!!
Actually I not scare at all lor!!
Just scare by her shout.Hahaha..
Nola,because before every scare part,my friend will tell me.
(He see before already but still accompany us watch second time.
Thats is JoeWay and WengHou.So good la both of them.)
So I already covered my eyes.Ngiek ngiek ngiek~!!
But still get scared 1 time because I covered so long already.
Then I thought it already over,who knows when I open my eye a bit to see.
The ghost appears in the tv(people who see before will understand,hahaha).
Damn shock.
Straight away scream..
Oh my god~~!!!
Lolz..
But not bad the day I had.
Thanks lot~~~^^

Stupid Rat

2009-08-25T14:28:00.002+08:00

Today,I sit Jojo's car go home after tuition.Before we go home,we went Eng Ann to eat things because Weng Hou keep telling us he is hungry.When we eating at XXX,Joe Way saw a rat running toward us.He keep quiet because he scared we will scream.

Who knows Huey Hsien's eye so "kaolat".She saw too!!Then she take her leg up to let the rat run through.
Who knows the rat thought it is attending Olympic,it run too fast and Huey Hsien take her leg up too slow.

Then how?Accident happened.Huey Hsien kicked the rat and she is wearing slipper.Of course she screamed.Because the feel you kicked something fury is so eeeuuuwwww...!!

Normally accidence happened,who is the most innocent?The one who hit others?Of course not right.The one who "kena" hit?Of course no,because they will got the pay from the one who hit them.Then,who else?Of course is the parking aside also kena want la!!Why I say this?Totally no related with the stupid rat right?Of course got related la!!!Because HH kicked the stupid towards my leg while I am enjoying my ABC!And my seat is back the rat,so I don't know anything until I feel something fury touch my leg and HH shout."RAT!!" and I scream together with her.So the rat get kicked and hit on someone leg.

Both of us scream and everyone look at us.Somebody even laugh.I remember you,kid!!Don't let me saw you scream next time,or else I laugh even louder!Lolz..Then,Joe Way said he already saw just now but keep quiet because don't want the situation like this happened.But it still happened.So lolz..Cute Jo~Then,I said this situation is much more better than if Xsu Ting is here lo!!Lolz..Sorry ya,Ting.I just speak out the truth.Hahahahaha...>.<

*Tomorrow will be a tiring day.Morning tuition,afternoon practise dance and night basketball mp.Hope everything will be smooth and fun!!^^

Lolz?

2009-08-15T22:09:00.003+08:00

Lolz..Recently suddenly many people(not many also la..just 2,3people but many sounds nicer instead of a few..hahaha) cared towards my crush.

What a lolx~
Actually I really don't know.One of my friend asked,"How you feel lately?He is so close with her yet she is your close friend."Honestly before I knew they were impossible,I feel nothing,just "O..." and think of "They together not bad ar,she is good enough for him".After I know, still nothing.Lolz..

Gave up already?
Used to it already?
Or...just my stubbornness for these days?

Don't know lo..And lazy to bother it..Because it isn't important also.
But I quite wish to get some counsel from one of my friend because his...Hmmm..He got many stuff same as me,I feel la..And every time I gained things throughout the conservation.
He quite lucky lo.Because we are not so close but he can get my trust so fast.A bit "bu shuang" one lor..Hahaha..Joking joking..

Another friend said,"You too close with many guy,hard to find your Mr.Right"
Lolz..I replied,"Don't want find can a not?"
Don't feel involve into a relationship right now.
Enjoying my life right now.
Don't feel to change it except be more hardworking on my studies.
I do think this is the right thing I need to do now.
Relationship?
May be later or never.
Because I feel like wasting time if it won't last.
Pesismistic?I don't think so.
Just think more further.

Appreciate~

2009-08-08T23:02:00.003+08:00

The day lately sounds good to me.

Because I found out 3 of my friends weren't single,

and another 1 more got confessed from someone she liked.

Felt the happiness and sweetness from them.

I felt excited too without reason!

Wahahaha...

Besides,

I found my way to go.

I got the lesson to let it go.

I found out let go was just so easy and I was struggle so much for past 1month.

I found out that to face those people who don't like me wasn't a tough job.

I found back my ohm towards co-curiculum.

I found back the spirit of myself.

I found out there's people were cared about me even though we weren't close.

I gained a lot of things after this.

Ya,it is suffer when I couldn't find the way out.

But if it is not so struggling,how could I feel the happiness when I found my way out.

Anyway,I appreciated the care and counsel from you guys.

It helped me lots.

Thanks.^^

第一次..

2009-07-31T23:55:00.000+08:00

长这么大了。。

第一次被针对。。
第一次被讨厌。。
第一次面对政治手段。。
第一次发现我最信任的人都戴上面具。。
第一次被激怒。。

突然，好茫然。。觉得好恐怖。。
在看着这篇布落格的你！你可以觉得我很假。。
因为。。我真的累了。。我不想再管了。。
活在别人的看法下做人，我很累了。。
我只想做回我自己！
开心面对每一个人。。
如果你们依然觉得我想靠关系，那随你！
但我还是会笑着面对你们，因为我大方！

是你们，一次又一次把我的热诚给扑灭了。。
是你们，让我学会戴上面具。。
但，这面具我戴不下。。
我记得有一位学长说过：“我长得不帅，但我不需要戴面具做人。”

中六，的确让我学了很多。。
也让我第一次想要对身边的每一个人做起防备。。
我不怪你们。。反而要谢谢你们。。
让我成长，帮我妈妈教孩子。。
谢谢你们！！
也谢谢关心我的朋友，我不会因为这一点小事而崩溃。
如果会的话，我还会叫淑雯吗?

*Sagittarius: Always be optimist!!^^

Prom Night,Night fever~!!

2009-07-30T23:11:00.032+08:00

Lazy blog about prom night.Just very "sim tia" my rm10.Why?Cause that make-up fellow cost me Rm10 just for my eye liner.Wakao!!Anyway,luckily I didn't waste rm48 for hair styling and make up.I DIY~Hahaha..Not pretty but at least not too ugly..Hehehe..

Bangkia~Plus 2 siao kia behindKok Thai~

Erm..Duno your name but I know we same tuition centre.Hehe..

Edmund~He know my name,suprise~

Heng Jin~

Yi Kuang~

Kang Kai~

Pei Chin~

Koperasi's friend~

Kha Lim~

Leong Chin~

Hui Xian~

Seow Yen Yen~

Wei Loon~

Kei Yeik~

Kok Hong~

Kian Wei~

Xie Wei,best buddy since form3!!

Jojo~!!!

Kian Ann~

Weng Hou~

Bestian~

Buddy since primary!!

Poh Yee~Totally different after make up,pretty!!

My daughter grown!!Sze Yee~

Alex~Long time no see..Still that pattern..

Hui Chin,My dear~Hahaha..

Mei Ting~Cutie girl!!

Hsien~

Kha Lim~Both of us like this photo muchie~!!

I learnt..I miss..

2009-07-19T01:08:00.009+08:00

I learnt..
Today I chatted with a senior for quite a long time.Half an hour,counted as long?Lolx..I heard quite a few comment about this senior,both of the good and the bad.Hmmm..Honestly,I don't know the real characteristic of this senior.During the conversation,quite a few times my heart conflict because some people say this senior not good and bla bla bla.Lastly,I felt..All the comment about this senior I shouldn't care.The only things I know is,this senior got many experiences and this senior willing to share.I learnt much throughout the conversation and I appreciated it.Just this.About this senior the

real characteristic..Hope that I could find it out later~Hehehe..Kepo..

I miss..
Just came back from Bon Odori and suddenly thought off to see one of the video clip at youtube which I planned to see 1year ago.But I keep on forgotten until today.I remembered,hahaha..Then,I found for quite a long time and I saw.I must post it here.Then,I can see when I want.No need find until so "pekcek"..Guess what it is?"Hamsap" video?Funny one?Lolz..All wrong~My dance performance with some of my girl guide's buddy.Oh my god~!!!Damn miss it~!!!After I saw,I was liked...Can I dance again?Hahaha..We practised this dance for a month!!But the completed dance was on one week from the day.I will never forget this.We keep on practised until I lost 2kg!!!So damn freak happy!!My waist became smaller too!But for that time only..After my SPM examination..The normal me went back..Hahaha..But unfortunately the video didn't recorded the whole dances.But nevermind la..At least most of it.Hahaha..Anyway,hope that you all could enjoy this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XLzx9biJakU

Tired!!But I like it~Hahaha..

2009-07-19T00:15:00.003+08:00

Ahhh~!!This few days felt so busy and tiring.Erm..Or I should say,"Since I joined clubs,my schooling life started busy."Everything felt almost end this week because my 2 clubs' task were ended at this week.

Moral club's quiz on Tuesday,my easiest task.I just asked to ready 2 sets of question paper for choosing and collected back the money from Form4 and 5 student.But this was quite hard because haihz..STK lower form student.No wonder everyone want to enter Kwang Hua.

After that,my bowling club which was a quite challenging task,competition interschool.First time be a leader in a task or I should say anything.I had never been a leader since I born out.Thanks lot to my task's member for giving me this chance to let me know how's my leadership and planning.Although my planning was not so perfect but at least..better than what I expected before everything started.I learnt how to plan,how to imagine the schedule FINELY(yet I failed,I never thought of participants will lated).Many climax during this competition,1st.We couldn't book lane that stick together,so quite nervous that time.Luckily at last settled.Phew~2nd,2 of our senior haven't reached although the competition is going to start.Keep called them.Finally,they came.Phew~3rd,members counted wrong and thought RM30+ lost.But after count a few times,only found out that somethings we didn't add in.Phew again~Every problem spoke out during the review meeting.After seniors told us our problem,I felt liked..so useless and sorry to my teammates.Its my fault because I didn't planned finely.After emo for a few minutes,confidences came back.(Lolz..Damn fast lerr).I told myself,"Haiyo!Who never faces failure or obstacle.No pain no gain,No failed no success.Next time don't repeated the same stuff can already.Take it as an experiences!!"(To one of my task's leader!!You should learnt this from me,always optimistic and confident!You may emo,but just a few minutes to let yourself self-examination.Okay?!)So,I give myself 70% for this task.A2 can already.Hehehe..

Lastly,I left dedication and MTE day.Dedication I am not worry because we just needed to do our ordered and I will find the cheapest new dedication's "ingredients" tomorrow.Then,MTE day.Honestly,I quite worry for this before today afternoon.But after counselling by Pang Yang and Kok Thai.Hmmmm..My confidences came back.My ohm came back too!My exhausted feelings gone(2 task in a week ler!!Not exhausted is fake one lor..Somemore interview ler).After that,my "Chi Ji" replied me.They sounds interested but tomorrow only can 100% confirmed but I felt ok want because they asked me want them do what there.So..Hmmmm...Hope everything can be very smooth!I believed we can do it!Wahahahaha..^^

11 july

2009-07-11T15:38:00.003+08:00

Today morning got telematch which is combined from Seni & Sejarah.I forgot to switch on my alarm so I over slept.Straight away jumped from my bed and rushed to brush teeth.No time to bath.Break my "Bath before I step to downstair every morning" principle but no point.Lack of time.But then,I am still lated.So sorry to my teammates.Thousands of sorry..Overall,the telematch okla.Not bad.Every station like quite easy but not easy also.Lolz.But I like the closed eye part and find your another partner.Because quite challenging but I agak agak also know where I am already.Because the station people said he will bring me to not so hot punya place.So,sure is beside because got tree and sure is near canteen there because that time the sun will be at "pintu besar" that direction.So,shadow agak agak is there already lo.Then,suddenly I heard my partner shout my "name".Then,I replied.Straight away walk to her voice direction.Because I am at beside,so I can walk quite fast by touching the pagar and know I won't "long pia".After I found that the voice is just beside me,I take out my braveness and walked out without holding things.Luckily,I touched someone's hand after I step 3 o 4 steps.So damn lucky and I found my partner.After we met,we heard the wisel and said,the game start.Oh my god..We found already ler.Hahaha..nevermind,we waited.Then,rupa-rupanya Kian Ann just beside me with his partner.And so ngam,his partner is his foster.Yoohoo yoohoo~~Got fate ler..Ok,both of you may marry.Hahaha..Others game not to say lame la,because want all game that didn't play before really not easy.Aahhhh..Kai Lee that game also not bad.Then,after all game we went back to the assembly hall(shouldn't be hall,space?lolz).Then,I saw someone look like my friend damn much but I don't think she will be at here because she is not a High School-rian.But after I saw she stand up after she saw me.Then,I confirmed is her already.I ran to her and hugged her.Wakao!!So long didn't met her already.My buddy~~~Hahahaha..Then,we chated and joked but not for very long.Quite a few minutes only.Nevermind,I promised I will go her house to chat a whole day just I haven't booking with her.Hahaha..

After that,we went KP for lunch.During this,the only things I could say is chitt chat,eat and joke.AND!!I saw Leong Wai Kit blushed!!Wakao!!!So red lor..Lolx..Funny~Hock Guan and Kai Lee also kena.Hahahaha..Just like this we spent for hours.From 12pm till 2pm something.Then,waited Loke "jie" with Kai Lee them.Then arranged some people that I need to fetch.Klang bus station,Delta HQ.Although it is TOTALLY opposite from my house.But because of..someone.So I fetched lorrrrr.Lolz.Don't know since when I say,I wish that my first passenger is you.Although now you already not the first one but nevermind la,at least I fetched you.Hahaha..Wakao..Damn nervous lor.Gratefully,that 2 buddy "sei zou",let him sit beside me.Wahaha..BUT!!My driving skill frightened him.Lolx..He said he not dare sit for the next time.Got chance only say la..We always 向左走，向右走,so at last our distance only will become further,not closer.Sienz la..Hahaha..Form6 life,not easy.So I won't play too much,must concentrate on studies and task!!!Do your best,wen!!About him,just forget it..Enjoy the time spent with him can already.It's enough.Ok!!Back to homework..Chaoz..

SS in the class..Hahaha..

2009-07-05T00:59:00.010+08:00

3 July 2009,Friday

At the last 2 period at STK,few of the SS members ss-ing because they know their beloved,Miss Yi Mei,the Miss STK candidates is going the leave them.She is going to her Maktab Perguruan to persue her dream.As her beloved one,we have no point to stop her from leaving us.Yet none of us will forget the sweetest memories you with us,even though just 1month plus.Honestly,when I know you are going to stop form6,my heart was like..not broken so bombastic but a bit crack la..Because we are from don't know each other(Although all of us are ex-Kwang Hua-rian) until formed a gang.We gather at a same place during assembly,we sit near each other at a same class,we(Just HH and SW) are in the same group in the lower6 camp,I am sleeping the same tent with you,just sleep beside you.May be the time for us to gather is not much but the memory is the sweetest.I feel that "Quality is better than Quatity".Last but not the least,don't forget us ya girl.Remember take care of yourself.As I know,your health is not so good.So drink more water,rest more and take some time to sweat also.Miss you!!Muakxx!!!

"Zao Sui" love~

We had our own style.

Scare scare~

Blue~~~Bob!!Hahaha..

Hsien & Wen

Yi Mei~We loves you!The SS gang.

Sunway~

2009-07-04T20:34:00.026+08:00

Today,such a busy day.I went school for Koperasi Gotong-royong.Yup,again.I am late.After busy about wiping stuff,sweeping,moping and so on,I went back earlier with Huey Hsien because we had a date after this.So,we went back around 10am.

After I reached my home,I bathed,I helped my mum did some housework then waited Kian Ann fetched me.After that,we "chiong" to Sunway.Kian Ann really "xin fu",in his car was all girl,got Yi Mei,Huey Hsien,Wei May and me.Some more Wei May and HH damn hot.Lolx..Envy them..Hahaha..Then,we went "Shogun" for our lunch as planned by Joe Way a.k.a Tied Bob.But we hang in front of "Shogun" for almost half an hour,planning want step in or not because it is quite expensive,RM55 per person.Anyway we still go in because it was already planned and of course for that half an hour standing in front of "Shogun" not only stand la,we SS by capturing photo.Then,we eat eat eat and talk talk talk and laugh laugh laugh.We spent there hours,almost 4hours..Lolz!!But of course didn't keep eat la,talk craps,ss capture photo,listen songs and laugh blindly.The waiter there also behtahan us already.Lolz.Laughter never end until 5pm like that.We left the restaurant because 5.30pm they will asked us leave.So,we leave by ourselves better la.Lolx.Then,we just stroll along the shops.But we separated into 3 gang now.Wei May,Yi Lin,Yi Mei and Esther 1gang.Joe Way,Kian Ann,Weng Hou and Huey Hsien 1gang.Kai Lee,Mei Ting and me 1gang.Kai Lee really great in social,where also can know new friends,at "Shogun" and almost every shops we hang.So...geng?Hahaha..Mei Ting and me just keep laughing only.Lolx..Then,after Mei Ting bought things she wanted.We went towards HH them.After we met,Jojo intro us something new and fun.You can put your photo or wording on don't know what thing,then it can become something like keychain.I bought 1 for 5bucks.It not expensive la.Because those thing quite memorable.Suddenly something pop out in my mind,why don't make this as 1 of our stall during MTE day?Then,I told Kai Lee on the spot.Then,we asked that fellow.He seems interested so we take his handphone number.But Kai Lee said seniors said cannot invited outsider into our school.Then,our school club also can't.Then,how?Make stall by ourself?Impossible mar..Duh..Don't know la..Just tell ketua about this and let him decide it.Then,we started joked while waiting the uncle settle my keychain.1 of the golden joke from Jojo,"You want choose Weng Hou who got 180cm or me who got 180kg."Oh my god..We laugh non-stop.Then,another 1 golden action from Jojo was he pushed someone face towards someone and pushed back,said"Don't look there already la."It is damn freak funny!!May be you don't know what m I talking but nevermind,Yi Mei know!!Hahaha..Damn funny..Then,Weng Hou and Esther Ting also got a bit..A bit..Aiya~Don't want tell you all.Hahahaha..Their friendship will change?What is the next?To be continued..Hahaha..After that,we go home separately.I sat Kian Ann's car again.Of course..Jokes started.Jojo still made us laugh out loud.Can't imagine how boring our school life will be without him..What a cute friend..

This fellow so hardworking,use 2 feather to clean the dust on the money.

Yea~The money is clean.Peace~

How to mop ler??Use hand or chin?Lolx..

Strawberry & Wendy

Cutie Mei Ting,the gold

Potassium & Oxygen

Kian Ann,our driver.Lolz..

Tracy,love KTV lots!!

18sx!!Hahaha..

Peace..

Acting X-man..Lolx..SS le..

All of us~Guess who is the stupid hand.Lolz.

Chatting~

Posing and wait Mei Ting join us.

Don't act cool la..Pattern more than badminton..

Eating~

Barbie Girl,Mei Ting..So Cute!!

Weng Hou,the 180cm..Haha..

Again..Act cute..Lolz..

Jojo!!!The cutest friend!!

With HH..Without WH

With WH..Without HH..They quarrel?Lolx..

p/s:Many jokes today yet I still emo in between.Haihz...I know what is the best way to settle yet I don't want to settle it.How stupid I m!!Rubbish..Keep giving excuse which is not excuse.Keep give ownself a fake imaginary.Oh my god..Hate Shu Wen so much!!!Everything should be has a full-stop yet someone stupid keep putting "corma"(How to spell?Lolx).

Camp at Bukit Cahaya,Shah Alam

2009-06-27T21:44:00.009+08:00

YooHoo~I'm back!!Haha..For your information,I went a compulsory camp for all lower6 students at Bukit Cahaya for 2days1night.Although it is stated as compulsory but many student are not going also.All of us were divided into 2groups,the 1st group will be there on Wednesday and Thursday while the 2nd group is Friday and Saturday.Students from B1,B2,B8 and B9 were arranged at the 1st group and the others class were at the 2nd group.I am from B3 so I will be located at the 2nd group.I didn't felt excited,nervous,sad or happy before the 1st group went because I am a girl guide,I had been went many camp before.So this camp to me is just "makan kacang".But after the 1st camp ended,my friend told me that we needed to go into the pond with no excuse like girls having period,allergy or anything,I felt that was ridiculous because I do think that a girl who is having period,need to go inside the muddy pond is no hygience at all!The sanitary napkins will absorb all the muddy water and those water will follow them during the whole activity.Cotton isn't clothes,water on clothes can evaporate easily,cotton can?Please have some knowledge of hygience,okay?Then,we were asked to put head into the water for 10seconds.My godness!!What will be my hair and face after this?!I felt complict because I don't want to go under these but I had paid.Although it is just RM35 but also money right.So,I was like..forcing myself to go.

On the 1st day,I'm late to school so me and my friends force to sit the 2nd batch bus to Bukit Cahaya.While we waiting our school bus(STK got private school bus,but 1 only~Better than nothing lor..) fetched the 1st batch to Bukit Cahaya,we chat,we ss,we capture some photos and so on.When we were on bus,we felt so sleepy and tired because the day before we tuition whole day after school,3pm until 6pm for maths replacement,7pm until 10pm for bio tuition at Bayu-Chi Liung.But ex-BK's guides were so excited,they chatting happily,jokes all the way round and so on.What a contra view..Hahaha..When we reached there,our bus driver complaint the bus was too noisy,like "sakai".Please la..Go camp is like that one what..Excited mar..Huiyo..Then,we needed to walk a few kilometres to reach our "dewan".After that,we listened some speech from those AJK(I not sure whether isn't Bukit Cahaya one la..Just surely their are camping pro,they leads uncountable camp before).Then,ice breaking.Then,lunch(curry chicken and cabbage,think so..forgotten..).Then,we start our activity.We were asked to go inside the pond and put our head into the water(but we put face go into the water only).Then,my team mates,Yi Mei sesak nafas when we put our face into the water,I think because she did't know how to swim,so used wrong way to hold breath.She almost fainted in the water,all of us shock but steady,hold her tight because she couldn't stand by herself.I felt very angry with those AJK because 2 of our teammates were feeling very unwell,1 asma,2 didn't know how to swim and all of them needed to do so except the asma fellow.Coincidencely,all of them are girl,left Lyn and me were the healthy one.Hahaha..Then,our group and group1 under a same leaders,he was so terrible,keep punished us with a very long time,others group "cincai" only,not as long as us.The most memorable game to me was the "air bag" games.They will provided us a big cloth,every people in group needed to fall from a high place to the cloth one by one and other teammates needed to use that cloth to prevent the faller fell on ground.This game is very excited,beside that we needed to trust our teammates,we needed braveness also.Because fall from a high place,somemore is back fall,really...scary but fun!!!I would tried to play another time if got chance!Me and Yi Mei felt so excited after we tried.Wahahaha..Between,I found out that every human's heart was still heart,even they don't liked or hate the faller,they still worried of if they didn't hold the cloth tight,what will happened to the faller,which means human will still helped their enemenies or to safe their lives at the last minutes.

At the night of the 1st day,we played "candle" game.Each group needed to protect 1 lighten candle to finish 3 checkpoint out of 5.By the way we finding our checkpoint,AJK will tried to blow our candle because to re-lighten up our candle,marks will be deducted and punishment.This game sounds easy but actually quite hard because 1team of people was not enough to protect the candle.At last,we combine with group1 and finally we get 1 checkpoint.This game trained our teamwork,patience,learnt from the error and arrangement to finish a task.Some of my teammates got angry when AJK keep blow off our candles but actually think more deeply,if our arrangement is good enough,could they success?I remembered someone said,"Don't always blame on others,when one of the finger pointing at others,the other fingers were pointing at you!!"The more failure you did,the closer you bit the success.Try to flashback,the time we successly protecting the candle is longer and longer after we get punishment and punishment.This is also an improvement.

Then another excited experience is nightwalk.Normally the night walk I had experience were close my eye with a piece of cloth and hold hands with the people front and back,then we will separated and sit alone at 1side for hours or hold hands walk through the jungle without torchlight.But this time,the same things yet is combine.We were blinded by our own shirts or jackets and leads by them to a place.They used leaves and sound to scare us during the blinded journey for sure(because I do this when I used to be an AJK also,XD..Now is the balasan of having fun on others).As you know,I know everything was fake so I just act scared to fulfill their satisfiedness.At the same time,tried to comfort teammates who was scared.Tell them the truth.Then,we were asked to sit at a place for waiting to go into the jungle alone.We just slept there because it was already late in night.After 2hours++,my backside damn pain,sit there sooooo long but haven't reached our turns,can you imagine?Can't?Just try it.Then,we "mengada-adakan" with the AJK let us go in first.We success at last,we permitted to go in first.Lolx..We no need to blind our eye during the jungle trekking.I thought AJK will leaded me throughout the jungle trekking,who knows after he pointed the rope to me and he gone.I was liked,"Har!!!Alone???!!!"Honestly,I am scared that time because I'm afraid of darkness and I got a bit night-blindness.I couldn't see anything,so I just follow the rope.I walked damn quick because I didn't wanted to stay at this place for more than 1 second.Suddenly someone caught my left leg,I damn freak shocked and scream.I had no mental ready for someone will touched me during this.I thought they were just shout or acted ghost to shock us.Then,I almost lost direction in the jungle because the rope suddenly disappeared.I was liked starting nervous because I see darkness only.Then,I told myself to be calm and slowly find the continued rope.Finally I found within 3sec,cool~Then,I am out of the jungle.In this avtivity,I found out that calm played the most important role.I believed that if I couldn't be calm at that moment,I would lost(of course won't lose also la,AJK surely was there,when you walked wrong,they will helped you).Say is easy,who can do it?Believe yourself,you can do it!

On the 2nd day which means the last day,we practise our sketch once then we perform.I,can said as the main character because the most "xiasui" is me were acted as "pokai" person.I forgot to fall down from stage fakely,so I just jumped down from the stage.When I sense my painness,I only remembered,I do the real fall.Luckily response was very good.(After my friend know I ACCIDENTLY did the real fall,she say luckily I am not act to commit suiside,what a big lame.Hahaha..)We add many funny funny things on stage which is never practise before.Luckily,the response is great,many people laugh and claps especially Khai Jian,so supporting huh..Hahaha..I do felt proud and happy in my group,which is Group2.Although my group wasn't the best group but when we were together doing a task,all of our's spirit were there,the heart were there.All of us never give up or when someone was almost give up,the others will motivated him or her.This was the teamwork!One of my teammates told me,I am good in acting.Actually I'm not,because everyone can do this just depends on how you think and do you dare?I dare because of you all,I felt worth because of you all although I know after this my image will gone(Actually my image never been there,hahaha..).I dare because of 1people,Bang Ming.He is a straight A scoler and good in cocuriculum also.Puan Ang brought him to our class to give us a talk.I remembered he told us,"Don't TRY your best,just DO your best."So,I should say "Thank You" to Puan Ang.If she didn't brought him to give us a talk,may be I couldn't do my best for my group.

Last but not least,I felt fortunately because of my selfishness,I don't want to waste the RM35 so I went this camp.I learnt much things from this camp and I found that I had grown a bit from my minded.I like my group,I love my teammates,everyone of them.

Tracy & Wendy

Guess who is this??

Tak Da!!I am SS girl,Nicole..haha

Group1 & group2 's leader

Know who is her?She's Yi Mei!!

We are in red!!

Boring~

2009-06-24T21:50:00.014+08:00

Today was quite a fun day,happens a lot of things.Example,Huey Hsien's name very cursing,Joe Way fell down from the chair after he said HH name.The chair's leg broke,damn kaolat.Everyone laugh when they saw this.Dineesh,the guy version HH laugher is the loudest.So terrible,friend fell down still laugh so loud though I am laughing also,just not so loud.Hahaha..After that,everyone keep pretend avoiding her.Joe Way told something very funny,he said"Luckily HH's ambition wasn't be a doctor.If not the baby not dare to be born when he o she saw HH.Lolz!!"Besides,I saw something very damn freak cute!!

It's this!!Ermm..Now only I know my hair is so messy.Hahaha..

Tak Da!!Cute right??Hahaha..

After school,I went tuition.After tuition,I pack my luggage because Friday I am going a camp.Most of my friend asked,"Why you so excited??Why you pack so early??"Okay..I am not excited,I packed so early because tomorrow,Thursday I got 2 tuition at a same day,3pm til 6pm and 7pm till 10pm.When I reached home,it will be 11pm.I will have no time to pack my luggage.So,don't keep asking me the same question AGAIN~Hahaha..Then,I "zi pai" some photo on my lovely warm bed.

I'm so tired..

Leave me alone..Just me,myself..

I got small mouth and short hair!!Hahaha...

Wendy in short hair~

Argggghhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~Life is so boring if I am not study.Haihz..Okla..Back to my table..Chaoz..

放下。。

2009-06-22T15:52:00.003+08:00

昨天，我上了一个课程。讲师说了一个令我印象很深刻的故事。。

话说有一个老和尚和他的一个师弟一起下山。途中，他们必须要过一条河。当他们在过到一半时，有一位年轻漂亮的女生在犹豫着怎么过河。老和尚话不多说地走回岸边把女生背过河，师弟看了很不适之味，觉得师父犯了佛界中的一条法则---色戒。第二天，师弟向师父请别。当师父文其因时，师弟毫不客气的说，：“因为师父犯了一个大错，师弟觉得再跟师父修道也没有意思。”师父想了想便问师弟：“你怎么还背着啊？”顿时，师弟惭愧不已。

从这个故事，我想我。。也是时候学会放下。。常常都败在不舍得。。也许。。没有感情的人也不是一件坏事。。至少能保护自己。。我不否认，我是个自我保护很强的人，难听一点就是自私。。因为心痛的感觉真的很不好受。。我不想被伤害。。我不敢说我从来没有伤害任何一个人。。但，对某一些人。。保护膜自然地失去控制。。是报应吗？我不知道。。

我终于认同我以前一个朋友说的，“我已经喜欢她到不知道自己喜不喜欢了。”以前，我觉得。。很不可能。。因为那是一种感觉。。不可能不知道。。但，现在我觉得。。有可能。。因为时间久了，你会不清楚那是一种习惯还是一种感觉。。

见到你
心跳加速已经没有了
但还是很在乎你在谁的身边打转或你常在谁的身边

说真的
我不喜欢遇到遇到你
因为我不喜欢看到你那冷漠的眼神好像我们不曾认识

我终于明白
为何人家说,吃不到的醋是最酸的
因为你又不是他的谁,你有资格吃醋吗?

为什么
明明已经很努力地忘记但还是办不到
也许我根本不想放弃因为不甘心?还是情还在?

人家说
时间可以冲淡一切三年的情也一样可以吗?
每次想起你只有淡淡的心痛与无奈

如果时间可以从来,
我一定会认真回答你的问题
一定会...

好烂的作品..太久没动笔了,很多华语字都忘了..@@

Everythings End~

2009-06-19T22:54:00.012+08:00

Finally..Orientation Week was ended. My mum cheers for me,my family felt so happy because I no need being bullied by seniors anymore but..I felt so.."berat hati".May be I am too sentimental or think too much,I treat every senior that I knew as my friend even though they didn't.I'm afraid the end of the OW = the end of friendship.Arwwhhhh..I think too much.

Today,Sunday..I don't really remembered what happened on Friday because I had a sucks memory. But I never forgot when the OW came to the end. I saw 1 comittee cried. He and she made me flashback my girl guide's life and Combine Camp 07 at my secondary school,Kwang Hua.Loads of memories runs on my mind.Without denied,I miss them lots!!!!My juniors,my friends,the CC's AJK,my classmates and so on.I understanded when the event ended,why the AJK's will cried because I tried before. Those feelings..like the things you work very hard for it and when it's end.Arhhh..Don't know how to explain.You will know after you tried so please don't ever say,"Don't know what they cry for?Lame.."If you work hard for those event before,I have nothing to say,may be your tears nerve stuck.For those never try the event before please shut up!!Because I heard people saying those comittee when they cried,say until very...haihz..nothing..

Another things,I keep thinking how to give my foster present,because I never gave present to people that I not close.Thinking whole morning but still no idea.At last,I just give the plastic bag to him and turn.Because I really don't know what to say larrrr.If is those "guai lan" one,sure "suan" first.Hahahahahahaha..Then,after the event I find a few comittee and friends capture picture.Between,I get some seniors contact also.What a nice ending..Lolx..

He looks so quiet but actually he is in the opposite,he is active [Vern Tze]

My nice foster[Kai Loon]

My group's comittee[Tsien]

She looks fierce but she is nice to her juniors.[Su Sin]

Everyone say he is handsome and cool..Doesn't he?Judge by yourself~haha..[Edmund Soo]

Lollipop's Prince!!Look at his eye and above only,you will found that both of them are so alike.[Chze Hsien]

The most contra-character and he is very nice!! [Chor Yau]

Orientation Weeks

2009-06-17T20:25:00.001+08:00

This week is the SMK Tinggi Klang orientation week.I felt so embarrassed and why we must bullied by them at first two days.I also felt that those MTE(Majlis Tingkatan Enam) are so rude and thought that they are always right.May be some of it are true but now I start to enjoy.

Let's talk about the first day first.I not dare wear that "spider" costume when I step into the school.Most of the lower six had put it on but me.Until I walk to the assembly hall only forced to put it on.Our orientation first day keep get scolded from comittee MTE.What's happen,I didn't remembered.

The second day also not really remembered although it was on yesterday.Hahaha..Ohya!!I remembered a mexican's wave did by human with hand holding their friend beside's ear and say sorry to comittee.Really funny but I felt the climax part is when one of the comittee asked the fellow who sat in front heard the victims' voice and the fellow said a bit.Then the comittee shouted,"a bit ar??!!" while pointing the stage.This means that who ever said got heard or a bit,they need to go up to the stage and be one of the victims.May be you all will feel like they are so ridiculous but actually they are not bad after you spent more time with them.Lolx.

The third day which means is today,the funniest day.Lolx.Today we were asked to collect at least 20teachers,all AJK MTE and 80 seniors signature after we found our foster.Of course our dearest teachers and seniors won't so easy let you get their signature.Sweets la..Sing song la..Jokes la..Dancing la..etcBefore we entered upper six block,I felt so scared because there were so crowded.Seniors seems like waiting this day for a long time.Really..Scary..Then we were finding our foster class by class.I am with Huey Hsien during we find our foster.Then we simply picked a guy and asked him told us where were our foster and we will give him more sweets as returns.Then,he asked me wait first and he turned and told Huey Hsien where was her foster.

I felt like.."Walao..I know I not as pretty as Huey Hsien but don't so..straight away mar.."After that he asked me followed him.I thought he was taking me to my foster.Guess where he bring me?To teacher's staff room.I was liked..Har??My foster was a teacher?But it was surely impossible.Suddenly a nerve impulses sent message to me and told that "he is your foster la!!"I was a bit like..za dao..Lolx..Then,he bring me here go there go to collect signature.I felt so lucky because I am under a comittee so I had no worries on asking seniors signature because when someone asked him sign and he will said,sign my juniors first.And he quite protect our's sweets.
When seniors asked for sweets,he will asked back double.Lolx.Okay,finish praising my good foster.

Got 1 comittee make me have an attention on him.Haha.He is really a cute person,every his action is so damn freak cute,make me laugh lots.May be he look a bit nerd(just because he is wearing spec,k?).I felt that he was so cute since first day.I thought he is those polite "tak ceh kia".Who knows he scolded people on the second day.But nevermind,still acceptable.Just a bit scared him cause he will shout at us also.Then,today when he checked every group's flag isn't there and our group didn't have the stick yet.So when he saw the flag is without the stick,his looks was liked,har??It's look cute~!For sure,I laugh again.When I get signature from him,he asked me a IQ question but I don't he is asking me question at first time so I just stared at him after he finished the question.Then asked what he is doing.Then he was liked "kek dao".Hahaha..After that he asked again,after few times I still couldn't guess it.Then I offered him jokes.But he say "Don't want la.I very easy laugh one."Then I "menolog dalaman"."My IQ so poor,then like that very fair la."But nevermind since you are my senior.After a few question,finally I get the answer correct.He look so suprised and said," why you know one?""I am clever."I replied.Lolz.Ohya..Additional,when he talked he will stared at you nearly and opened his eye big.Haha!!So special but cute la..Overall..he is cute..

Thats my orientation day!!Hope tomorrow I can finished all my signature.Left 7 teachers,4 MTE and 27 seniors.Gambatek!!

Spectacle

2009-06-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

Lately I found out that I had short- sightenness.
Left eye 100 and right eye 50.
Feel like a bit weird because 1 month before I had tested my eye.
But that fellow said I didn't had any short - sightenness.
So I decided to buy a spectacle.
Firstly,I went my dad's friend's shop to choose.
Unfortunately,I couldn't found the spec which suit me and the price not so "friendly".
What friendship also meaningless lo..
Then, I went A-Look because my sister said there not bad.
There really not bad.I chosen a few type.
After rejected some of it,I left 2 type lastly.
Because I like the white colour but my family say another is nicer.
I didn't buy at last because want to have others opinion.
So,please leave some comment to help me choose.
Thanks^^!!

Which want better??

4th.Jun

2009-06-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Today make me feel like quite compact.

Because I didn't waste my time.

Firstly,I helped my mum did some housework.

Then,I met SueJean because she want me to be her model.

(she is taking make up courses)

Quite new experience.

But my eyebrown.

My pity eyebrown.Lolz.

Still haven't use to my new eyebrown.

Feel like so thin and short..T.T

Although my previous eyebrown very ugly,

but i like it.Haha

After this,I feel that make up really make much differences.

It really don't look like me.

Next time I post it up.

Then,I watched "Hong Kong" drama the whole night.

Then first time on phone by handfree.

Lolz.Quite enjoy today.

Because no books at all.

Quite regret why I finished my school work so fast.

Now abit boring.Lolz.

It is so thick right?

Lollipop~^3^

2009-06-03T20:00:00.001+08:00

YooHoo~~

Lollipop is coming to Malaysia~!!!

Recently I am very excited because Fahrenheit just left

and Lollipop is coming~

Although I couldn't go 现场 to support them.

BUT my mentally support is always with them!!!

My Prince,XiaoJie and XiaoYu!!

Prince is my first sight lover,

his look is so gentleman,polite,adorable,handsome,fair

and his result good!!

How I know that?

Because I got see their 节目

His result all 80marks above,must learn from him.

This show that he can handle his result and his job perfectly.

The 2nd one, XiaoJie

His look is like 乖乖仔.

And I like his single eye layer(like that correct ar?)

It's look so charm..

Finally I agree that a girl with double eye layer is pretty,

while a guy with single eye layer is charming~

And he is kind hearted,clean and so on.

The 3rd one is XiaoYu

He know "base"(how to spell?) very well

and he a bit look like bad guy.

男人不坏女人不爱?

Haha..Nola,because mostly rocker look a bit bad la.

Nevermind,I don't mind.Wahahaha..

XiaoYu,"But I mind."

Haha..SS~~

When I know they are coming,I felt so excited and nervous.

I will imagine like,may be XiaoJie notice me and have a chat with me.

Wakao!!Great man!!

Or XiaoYu play a song with his base then accidently eye contact with me.

Damn!!So "lam"~~

Or Prince smile to me.

YooHoohoohoo!!Happy~~~~~

Although everything just inside my imagination,

but still very high.Wakakakaka~

But the main point is...

My mum don't let me go

because Stadium Negara is too far,she don't let me drive there

And...

I don't know how to go.= =

So I only can see them from television.

Nevermind!!Still can very high one

because I am Shu Wen~~

Always SS..Hahahaha..

Lollipop!!Gambatek!!

Choc7 "ga yao" also ya~

\^0^/

Waiting~~~Count down 3days only~!!

Loves..

2009-06-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman,
but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone...
but it takes a life time to forget someone.

It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else,
but it's morepainful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

If love is the answer,
can you please repeat the question?

To the world you may be just one person,
but to one person you may be the world.

Love is like heaven,
but it can hurt like hell.

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying,
is exactly the one making you cry?

She taught me how to love,
but not how to stop.

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

When they asked me what I loved most about life,
I smiled and said you.

Love is a language spoken by everyone,
but understood only by a heart

Love the heart that hurts you,
But never hurt the heart that loves you.

A Love Story

2009-06-03T12:57:00.000+08:00

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding,many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention on him. At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised, but due to being polite, she promised.

They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything,she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. "would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee".Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red, but still,he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.She asked him curiously; why you have this hobby? He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee.Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood,think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there".While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home,cares about home, has responsibility of home.Then she also started to speak, spoke about her far away hometown, her childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted,warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story , the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said: "My dearest,please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie.This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.Remember the first time we dated?I was so nervous at that time,actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought thatcould be the start of our communication!I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time,still want to know you and have you for my whole life,even though I have to drink the salty coffee again".Her tears made the letter totally wet.

Someday,someone asked her: what's the taste of salty coffee? It's sweet.She replied. Love is not to forget but to forgive, not too see but to understand, not to hear but to listen,not to let go but to HOLD ON !!!!Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.Who calls you back when you hang up on him.Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.Who holds your hand in front of his friends.Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

@@

2009-06-02T15:51:00.000+08:00

Honestly speaking..

I am quite regret that I didn't listened to my mum.

Yeap,about my hair.

Luckily I only cut my fringe.

Because I not really satisfied with my "new" fringe.

It was like..same with my previous and it looks more numb.

Nevermind,no pain no gain.

RM3 only.For the one who want to laugh,just laugh la..

To cheers others up also not bad rite?

Hair~

2009-06-01T14:10:00.000+08:00

Aaahhhhhh~~!!!

I want to cut my hair~~

But I don't know what hair style suit me.

My fringe..Short?Let it longer?Or remain?

My hair..Should it be long or cut it short?

Damn..

Do you believe that I haven't cut my hair since I rebond my hair,

which is after SPM,December

Half year pass..

Oh my godness..

I decided cut it later.

Around 6pm..

But my mum will killed me off after that?

Because she asked me to let my fringe long until I can tied it.

Then only cut the behind hair as my fringe length.

Now is "zaman 70-an"??

I told her,I don't like and it looks so numb.

She replied,"very nice la.."

I don't want!!!

So..should I cut it later?Or just be the 70-an?

T.T

Aeon JJ

2009-05-30T16:10:00.000+08:00

YooHoo~

Finally I am blogging.

Finally the blog feel is back.

Although I know it may just tonight only.

Hehe..

This morning I went out with my previous classmate.

Of course not all of them,

but part of them already made me satisfied.

Finally I don't feel I am lonely.

Finally I don't feel I am just myself.

I sat Jin's car there.

On the way,we chat awhile.

But I can't remember what we chat@@

With this kind of memory,Bio class..

suit me??

Damn it..

After that,we met others at Macdonald(my fav fast food)

Quite suprise when I saw penguin,because loon did't told me penguin is coming

He become thinner yet muscle still there,just his B-cup become A-cup

He sound sad when I tell him.Haha..

Then,we ss awhile there,of course taking picture lo..

Everytime same..But quite happy..Hehe^^

After that,loon told something damn freak funny when we walking to cinema,

Harry and KKH still walked up to the escalator.

All of us laughed.Really..Very funny..

Go cinema so many times already still can walk wrong place.

Don't know since when I did't laugh like this.

We went for "Terminator".

A not bad movie but unfortunately I don't like this type of movie.

Because it shocked me few times until my friend asked me,

"you thought you looking horror movie ar.."

Another said,"you sure never see horror movie before."

Yup!I never see horror movie at cinema before,so what..

So..at last the thing I can do is just try to enjoy it.

Actually the movie not bad,

the effect of bom and the message it want to tell us is quite clear from the view.

One of the view is the LA brigde,I can feel the city did't have the sound of hope.

But...the cinema is too cold.Haha..

After that,we went for a restaurant "Pastamania" as our lunch.

I orderer a "country baked pasta",it tasted average.

But if I can choose again,I won't choose it.^^

We spent almost 3 hours there..Why?To wait someone..

Kai Lee~~!!

Actually we also don't know want go where.Hehe..

We chat much there.

From my side conversation,Yi hao very "beh"..

Didn't answer me when I asked him question,pretend did't heard it.

Chun wai..just answer and more than what I questioned.

Plus,he said I got look and I am a good girl.Wakao..First time..Haha

Still got abit shuang although he just say but did't meant it.Lolz..

And he keep make qying shy.Pity qy..Haha

Oi!!You got sf and NS that fellow already!!

Learn from loon,just sit there quietly wait kl back.Haha

Ohya!!Something damn funny here.

When Chun wai asked me,lately I got sms frequent and I replied not so because he did't sms me.

Then he really sent me a message there.So funny..

Then Yi hao said I did't sms him

And he said he want I asked," what are you doing?"

Really..I laughed much..

After we left that restaurant,we chat at the middle of the main road.

I don't feel anything at first when we chatting happily.

When I stand aside quietly,I found out something.

Most of the people will looked at us with a weird sight like thinking,

"Why this group of kids standing at the middle of the way blocking others"

Then I laughed alone.

Sui saw that and asked why I laughed alone,make me feel like he thought I am something wrong.

Everyone just left so suddenly without said "good bye" or whatever

So weird,isn't because most of us are in form6?Lolz..

Then I go home by Yuvin's car.He really very very very cute and funny.

He forgot where his car parked and scolded Chun Kiat why he did't remember also

My god..I thought driver will be more clear?Lolz..

"Luckily" he parked outside.

Because he said,I walked along the whole JJ then I will know where I parked.

Kai lee straight away shoot him.So funny..

After we "found" his car,we sent Kai lee home first.

Then,my turn.

On the way,I found out Yuvin nearly got a gf already.

YooHoo~Gambatek ya!!Lolz..

Lastly,I really happy today.Thanks you guys,my dear friend.

Next time "lim teh" asked me also la..

I can drive already,very eazy..Haha..

*Loon,the host,not so boring.Still ok.Don't so scare.Organise next time.I sure support you if I can